[greyclouds]

Why do I just not have the strength to walk away from people that make me feel ****?

As soon as they make me feel even just a little off I go... In to ****ing dream land. Only to wake up.

I do it all the time. I just want too... But I'm just going to scream in to my pillow instead ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[Landoflimbo]

Its a toughie, its the bittersweet combination that we all are guilty of. You let these people in because in some way or another they will or do make u feel something good. You don't know how or why but they do, but at the same time you are biding your time with how long it will last before they snatch it away from you again... You know its coming but by then its too late. Its very easy to give and share advice, rather than actually take it. We're all guilty of it, but truth is only you know who are the ones worth keeping!! I'm rambling.. I hope you feel better soon.
Scream away ((hugs))

I do this too sometimes, stick around people who make me feel crappy. I think it's because I don't have a ton of people in my life and the people who do that are sometimes friendly with me, you know? I don't have the social intelligence to understand when they are being jerks to me until way after I've already been used or hurt or something. I don't really fall into this trap so much anymore, but I used to in my twenties all the time. I think it kind of had to do with a mutual co-dependence of sorts. Maybe.

[Ultra Darkness]

I have the same problem with my brother. It's the old "can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em" thing.

[greyclouds]

Originally Posted by Ultra Darkness

I have the same problem with my brother. It's the old "can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em" thing.

Now that is def what I mean... I can't live with out this person. But I can't leave with them either.

Sometimes I do get strong enough to walk away. But I always go back.

It's not that they horrible to me there not. My moods normally ruin things any how.
It just to much of grey situation. Which is hard when living in black and white.

[youwillrise]

yup...i do this.

and i always end up apologizing for reacting in a ishtty way and they believe that i'm the only one to blame.

Originally Posted by youwillrise

yup...i do this.

and i always end up apologizing for reacting in a ishtty way and they believe that i'm the only one to blame.

I've always been the one to aplogize first. even though some of the time it really isn't all my fault.

I apologize to the point that it irritates people and I have to apologize for apologizing and that some people don't take me seriously. I'm always sure that I've offended someone. I've been yelled at, cursed at, and put down for my impulsiveness and faulty decisions so many times that I honestly don't trust myself at all.