Relating everything to BPD

I don't hate you. I can't hate anyone, even when I want to. Just pm me if you need to talk about anything, 'kay?

You're not alone believe me, I have the worse family EVER accept my hubby and kids, As for anger I have anger issues and this is something I am working on in therapy, Hatred yeah I have hatred inside me too against myself, again I am working on in therapy

Yes, there is debate around the terminology… Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (ICD-10).

Nevergoodenough, you are too young to give up. My teenage and early twenty years were my absolute worst time. It's not just BPD you're fighting. You are also at the age that you don't know who you or what you want, more than just the BPD, and relationships are at the absolute worse. My teens and early twenties were horrible. Don't give up. Things will get better, but only you can work on it and make it happen. The worst thing about BPD is that the depression and anxiety makes you forget the good times, but they exist too. Don't forget that and savor them when they come, as few and far away as they appear sometimes.

Sure, it's easy to blame BPD for all my troubles, but I have thought about this a lot, and I don't think I do and I don't think most of us on this forum do. I'm not being defensive (well, maybe a tiny bit) but I think I use the Dx as an explanation for the way I think (which is to strain everything through a negative filter), the intensity of my emotions (which seem to be more reactive and intense than anybody else I know), and yes, sometimes my behavior. I really like the name Emotional Vulnerability/Dysregulation Disorder because it is descriptive.

I quote Beautifulfreak because I agree that this is a place to share experiences, ask questions and vent in order to seek out support, especially when outside support is scarce or nonexistent, and learn what coping mechanisms have worked for others. I think we all get stuck at various times, and this is when we need support more than ever, because being stuck is a primer for the self-loathing to kick in, and then there's a spiraling downward. (No, self-loathing is not necessarily a BPD trait, but it seems fairly common in this forum.)

I very much feel like this right now. I, too, very much appreciate when I get support from the forum, but when I get so depressed that I want to be dead, I keep quiet and to myself. I berate myself because I have nowhere else to go and think this kind of reaching out is not going to help. And yet I keep coming back because there are times when I feel like sharing... and because I have nowhere else to go.

I hope this doesn't sound like a rant. I don't know if I've made any sense, either. Aaargh.

Afterthought: Sometimes a virtual hug just doesn't do it for me, you know? I don't have a source for real ones.

I don't know how to use the quote option whereby you can insert pieces of what other people say but yes TheRealDeal that is what I think too…people don't blame 'everything' on their disorder, it is just a part of us and a lot of us genuinely do feel bad at times…I know I feel that way much of time and this is a good place for people to share and support.

I think you are making sense…I think it is good for people to express how they feel…everyone's feelings are valid.