[larakeziah]

So, I haven't been on here in a while and I usually post in the bipolar threads but yesterday my psychologist tells me she thinks I may have borderline personality disorder. I'm confused and don't know what to think or do. Not seeing her now for 2 weeks and so can't discuss it with her till then. My friend and her mum read the info on bpd and they both agree that its definitely me. I don't know what to think or feel. I would appreciate any advice or feedback. I feel totally numb and a little scared. I don't know if my dx is wrong or if I have both but I know I'm not right!

Thanks for reading

You could have both. Or neither. Or just one of them. It'd be a good idea to talk to your psychologist about it more when you see her in two weeks and ask her about any questions you have. Until then, just hang around this forum, if you'd like.

[Luvmydog]

Originally Posted by larakeziah

So, I haven't been on here in a while and I usually post in the bipolar threads but yesterday my psychologist tells me she thinks I may have borderline personality disorder. I'm confused and don't know what to think or do. Not seeing her now for 2 weeks and so can't discuss it with her till then. My friend and her mum read the info on bpd and they both agree that its definitely me. I don't know what to think or feel. I would appreciate any advice or feedback. I feel totally numb and a little scared. I don't know if my dx is wrong or if I have both but I know I'm not right!

Thanks for reading

Getting a new diagnosis can be scary and confusing, especially if you've been seeing a psychologist for a while. What isn't scary and confusing however, is that having the proper diagnosis means that you will be receiving the appropriate care. This forum has a lot of caring people, and we all seem to have big ears (in other words we listen pretty well). Know that for the next two weeks until you are able to discuss your questions with your psychologist, we'll be here and afterward. We may not always have the answer, but we are open to listening.

Hope this helps.

I am not sure how to put this but I guess I'd ask you first off, what is so scary about a diagnosis of bpd? I guess the reason I don't understand is because when I was Dx'd it was a light for me, it helped me to gain focus on what I am, gave me direction into how to learn more about myself and why things were the way they were in my life.. It helped me to understand some behaviors of mine and with that, gain some control or at least some skills in coping with those behaviors when they were "off" kilter or inappropriate.

BPD is absolutely not a gloomy thing, a death sentence, or something that has you doomed. Thing is, if you are indeed one that suffers from bpd, nothing is going to change that fact. Having an official dx of it is a good thing so you're no longer in the dark floundering around like a blind person trying to figure things out. You now have direction as to where to get help, learn to cope and deal with what you have. It's better to know what you have and deal with it than to have a disorder and not know.

Hope this helps.

[larakeziah]

Thank you all for your replies. And s4ndm4n2006 I never thought of it that way, I guess what I'm scared of is what ppl will think. I know I shouldn't but I do. I'm worried they will think I'm some weird freak. But I guess if I am dx'd with bps then I will get the right treatment and stuff.

Thanks again, it helps to know that I'm not alone.

I understand that. Of course another thought about that, at least for me is that i thought people thought I was a freak long before I found out about my DX so it didn't really affect that for me They're going to either think that or not based on what/who I am and those that do are not worth worrying about. They are not my friends.

[larakeziah]

Am seeing my GP today so I'm going to mention what my psychologist said and see what my GP can do if anything so I don't have to wait 2 weeks. Hopefully she'll be able to suggest something or refer me to someone or something like that