[Cryptic.]

How do you cope with a break up?
I feel like ending my life.
I can't cope with this.
Not now.
Not again.
Everything is so f*ked up.
So many things going on...
can't cope.
Need to end my life.
Voices loud.
Too loud.
All too loud.

[Ithilanar]

I know the feeling. The thing is, it doesn't feel like we are just losing a person that we care about, we feel that our inner core melts down and we feel worthless and expendable.
You have to realize that what you're thinking and feeling right now isn't the real you, but your disorder talking and twisting your experiences. You aren't worthless and you definitely aren't expendable.
The best you can do is to find as much support as you can from friends and relatives until the storm wears out. Only thing that really helps is time. You need to surround yourself with people who can make you feel that you are important and that this too will pass.
Who knows what awaits you on the other side. Keep writing here, don't let go.
Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary pain.

[ScarletBegonias420]

Originally Posted by Cryptic.

How do you cope with a break up?
I feel like ending my life.
I can't cope with this.
Not now.
Not again.
Everything is so f*ked up.
So many things going on...
can't cope.
Need to end my life.
Voices loud.
Too loud.
All too loud.

I know exactly how you feel. When my ex and I broke up I felt completely broken, my world came crashing down. I felt helpless and worthless, I just wanted to die, I would cut myself every night but you need to know this intense emotion you feel is just your disorder. Bpd's experience emotion 20% more intensely than normal people. I just want to stress to you that why your feeling this intense emotion of sadness and hopelessness is because its your disorder playing mind tricks with you. Surround yourself with friends and family, time will heal the pain. Feel free to message me if you ever need to talk, feel better

Originally Posted by Cryptic.

How do you cope with a break up?
I feel like ending my life.
I can't cope with this.
Not now.
Not again.
Everything is so f*ked up.
So many things going on...
can't cope.
Need to end my life.
Voices loud.
Too loud.
All too loud.

"need to end my life" -- try not to jump to that conclusion. The truth is you need an end to the overwhelming sense of loss, feelings of abandonment and rejection that have spun you out of control, emotionally.

It is alright to mourn the loss of a relationship, of someone you care about, regardless of the reasons it happened. It is normal and to an extent everyone that has had a break up goes through this, it's just probably more intense than others may go through it.

There is light on the other side. Truth be told, I've been right where you are on more than one ocassion. The most recent not being the loss so much of someone that I should have hung onto (thankfully) but someone I was intertwined with and attached to for 13+ years. So not so long ago I went through exactly what you're thinking and feeling, and that, for awhile tbh. Many people here, have helped. I've chatted and posted to the forums (as you can see) a lot over the past year+ and it's helped to find support in others.

Hind sight, I am grateful and offer this to you - one of the best things that happened to me, was to become single again, whether temporarily or not I cannot say but I've learned a lot, grown a lot and changed for the better during my independence. I know right now you cannot see this. I understand that but I promise you, hanging in there, if only by a thread, will, in the end be worth it.

Challenges, pain and tribulations in our lives builds us up, builds our character and maturity -- unfortunately in the midst of it, it is hard to believe that. Just trust me on this, it will be worth it.

My heart goes out to you.
~S4

[Cryptic.]

i need to hurt myself.
i need to kill myself.
i cant take this.
i cant.
its too much.
f*c*k.