[GeorgiaGirl413]

so, my cousin in law finally completed her suicide this afternoon, and I am jealous. How sick is this?

[Luvmydog]

I am sorry for your loss. I don't think that it's sick, I think it's pain that makes you feel this way. I hope that you find peace (in some other way, please).

[TheRealFDeal]

It does sound sick, but I can totally imagine feeling the same way. Totally. But then, I do feel as though I am sick -- certainly I'm not at all healthy.

[OnyxRayne]

I'm so sorry about your loss. I wouldn't think feeling that way was completely normal, but I would probably feel the same way if that were to happen to me at this point in time. Out of grief... Out of everything else that was going on in my life. Please hang in there.

(((Many Hugs)))

[Unknown Shadow]

Yeah, I feel like it every time I hear someone died. The worst thing is that I don't feel like it's sick, I keep telling myself that it is, but I just don't believe it.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Originally Posted by TheAviot

Yeah, I feel like it every time I hear someone died. The worst thing is that I don't feel like it's sick, I keep telling myself that it is, but I just don't believe it.

Nor do I

[Fuzzybear]

Okay. I'm going to be honest, and you might be mad at me. I originally flagged this because I didn't think it belonged on here; I thought it was too triggering. But then I realized that I felt that way because I agreed with you; I would be jealous as well. I feel the same way that poptart316 did in her post a little while ago--I think about it every single day. And no, I don't have the option of going inpatient. I have a job and bills to pay and zero support outside of myself. I just...can't fall apart. So I have no choice but to just push the thoughts aside when they come.

[allme]

Originally Posted by GeorgiaGirl413

so, my cousin in law finally completed her suicide this afternoon, and I am jealous. How sick is this?

Sorry for your loss, I must have missed this post. And no, it's so not healthy to feel that way, I hope you feel differently now

[allme]

Originally Posted by misskeena

Okay. I'm going to be honest, and you might be mad at me. I originally flagged this because I didn't think it belonged on here; I thought it was too triggering. But then I realized that I felt that way because I agreed with you; I would be jealous as well. I feel the same way that poptart316 did in her post a little while ago--I think about it every single day. And no, I don't have the option of going inpatient. I have a job and bills to pay and zero support outside of myself. I just...can't fall apart. So I have no choice but to just push the thoughts aside when they come.

I doubt there is anything I can say of any use, so for now accept my hugs and if any help (although I know you don't really know me) feel free to pm me whenever you like for further support or anything

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Originally Posted by misskeena

Okay. I'm going to be honest, and you might be mad at me. I originally flagged this because I didn't think it belonged on here; I thought it was too triggering. But then I realized that I felt that way because I agreed with you; I would be jealous as well. I feel the same way that poptart316 did in her post a little while ago--I think about it every single day. And no, I don't have the option of going inpatient. I have a job and bills to pay and zero support outside of myself. I just...can't fall apart. So I have no choice but to just push the thoughts aside when they come.

Not mad at all

[tattoogirl33]

I've had 3 family member pass away in the last 6 weeks.. and I envied all of them.. my family thinks I'm messed up since I don't cry, but I do cry. I cry out of jealousy.

[Mustkeepjob32]

I am sorry for your loss.