A Good Day

Aug 24, 2013, 08:41 PM

Since I've posted so much negative lately, I thought I'd say something positive.

I had a good day today. I went to lunch with a friend which was just okay... I haven't had the best appetite lately and, two bites in, I was completely done, which I was kind of afraid would happen, but whatever. It was good to actually go out. We then decided that we wanted to just be lazy and lay by the pool at her apartment. We ended up swimming and just laying in the sun the whole afternoon. Then we went for ice cream around dinnertime.

I'm sitting here totally exhausted and smelling of sunscreen, feeling pretty okay. It feels good to know that I have at least a few people who want to be around me for a whole day. I think part of my problem is that I allow myself to stagnate in my apartment for weeks at a time and then depression takes hold, I get anxious about certain situations in my life, and then I get in that dark place where I believe that no one cares and then I don't want to be here anymore. Don't get me wrong, this one day hasn't pulled me completely out of the bad place. I'm still depressed and anxious, and my friend noticed that there was something a little off (she said that I seemed to be "very serious" and it's true--I wasn't very happy-go-lucky at all) but I feel a lot better than I have in a long time.

Anyway, that's all.

anneo59 · Aug 24, 2013, 08:43 PM

Take care of yourself and keep trying, misskeena, you're worth it. I know it's hard, and I wish you well!

Maranara · Aug 24, 2013, 08:55 PM

I'm glad you're feeling better; I hope the feeling lasts for a long time.

poptart316 · Aug 24, 2013, 09:04 PM

I'm glad to hear this.

TheRealFDeal · Aug 25, 2013, 01:30 AM

MK! I guess it just goes to show that spending some time being social, and having it go well, can have effects lasting past the event itself. Gotta take it where you can get it, cuz we all know how quickly it can vanish.

Does this friend know anything at all about your BPD or depression? How did you come to be friends and how long? Not really on point, but I'm really interested.

LadyShadow · Aug 25, 2013, 01:38 AM

Glad you got out and did something! That always make me feel better especially when I have been isolating. So happy you had a good day and you're feeling ok. Hope it lasts!

Aug 25, 2013, 11:48 AM

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Originally Posted by TheRealFDeal

MK! I guess it just goes to show that spending some time being social, and having it go well, can have effects lasting past the event itself. Gotta take it where you can get it, cuz we all know how quickly it can vanish.

Does this friend know anything at all about your BPD or depression? How did you come to be friends and how long? Not really on point, but I'm really interested.

She knows something about the depression, but I haven't told her anything about the BPD, or anything about my hospitalizations. So I've told her very little. We've known each other for years and fell out of contact because she moved away for a while. We just got reacquainted within the last few months because she left a message on my Facebook around my birthday talking about how cool she thought I was and I was like, "Hey, we should get together..."