[Mustkeepjob32]

Hello all!

So Saturday I fly off to to another city to get ready to start my new travel assignment on Monday. I'm excited, nervous, and scared.
I earn good money when I work but through the years the problem has been me losing jobs due to absences. This puts a strain on my family financially and I want to stop that. Plus, I know that I will feel better about myself if I am successful at keeping jobs.
I haven't had alcohol since I've been off (a month) and everyone seems to think that alcohol is the culprit for my demise. They say that whenever I drink, it messes with my meds and sends me into a tailspin of missing work due to increased anxiety brought on by the alcohol, until I eventually lose the job. I think they may be right, but sometimes I've missed work when I didn't night before. I think missing work has become in some ways a crutch; I miss work and feel momentarily elated and stress free until I realize I'm THIS much closer to losing my job.
Here's the thing, on my day's off, I like to catch up on shows and movies on my computer and I like drink while I do that. Drinking helps me get into the movie more. Plus I also like to try to find guys to have encounters with (I never end up going through with anything because how ugly, undesirable I feel).
If I just don't miss work, I will make money and then eventually start living a more normal life where I can buy things that I need and feel better about myself. I'm just scared how that's going to happen.

[Luvmydog]

I hope that you do well.

[greentires4me]

thats what they have been talking about my booze habit too saying its my demise but who says them really if I wasn't taking all the pills I could function okay on the booze. I know I have problem with alcohol I am fully aware but don't they know makes me less twitchy and a good problem solver to get things done. I've been sober a month too...

But I hope you have and keep this job you can do it

[shezbut]

Best wishes on your job ~ I hope that it works out well and that you stick to staying away from alcohol!

[GeorgiaGirl413]

I have been sober for two years, and my BPD is MUCH improved. I would never have been able to do the work that I have done had I not gotten sober. Just saying...no problem was ever solved or washed away by pouring alcohol on it. When you sober up the problem is still there and you still have to deal with it.

Originally Posted by Mustkeepjob32

Hello all!

So Saturday I fly off to to another city to get ready to start my new travel assignment on Monday. I'm excited, nervous, and scared.
I earn good money when I work but through the years the problem has been me losing jobs due to absences. This puts a strain on my family financially and I want to stop that. Plus, I know that I will feel better about myself if I am successful at keeping jobs.
I haven't had alcohol since I've been off (a month) and everyone seems to think that alcohol is the culprit for my demise. They say that whenever I drink, it messes with my meds and sends me into a tailspin of missing work due to increased anxiety brought on by the alcohol, until I eventually lose the job. I think they may be right, but sometimes I've missed work when I didn't night before. I think missing work has become in some ways a crutch; I miss work and feel momentarily elated and stress free until I realize I'm THIS much closer to losing my job.
Here's the thing, on my day's off, I like to catch up on shows and movies on my computer and I like drink while I do that. Drinking helps me get into the movie more. Plus I also like to try to find guys to have encounters with (I never end up going through with anything because how ugly, undesirable I feel).
If I just don't miss work, I will make money and then eventually start living a more normal life where I can buy things that I need and feel better about myself. I'm just scared how that's going to happen.

Interestingly this is similar to what I was saying about my job not too long ago... I know how this is and I know how it feels. You can get out of the rut of missing too much work, it takes effort and some days it's really not very easy to do but well worth the trouble. After you've started getting your butt to work more consistently it starts to become the norm again and it also will work wonders for your attitude, and emotional stability. I know. I'm feeling a lot better now that I am.

And the money you get back is all too worth it. Feels nice to get full checks again, you know?

Good luck and I'm here as someone that knows what it's like, and open to talking to you if you need it.

~S4

[allme]

Congrats on new job! Hope it all works out!

I have never had a problem with alcohol but I am a self confessed ex junkie. Only been clean a couple of weeks but has done me wonders. I would strongly recommend giving the alcohol a big miss. It may seem like it's helping but it will only make you feel worse in the long run. Like me, you need to find something else to help you relax and give you that release. I am still searching so can't advise but hope you on your journey find something. Stay strong, you can do it! One day at a time remember!