[Luvmydog]

An important question, even at this late hour. How much of what am I doing will I take responsibility for? How often will I apologize for my actions, and how sincere will the apology be when I am in a fit of ragefulness? Have I tried, really tried, to be better, or have I used my dx as a crutch? When will I shut off the anarchy of emotions and rely on self-reliance? What am I doing, and why am I doing it?

[IGotThis]

I have had such a hard time with this ever since I got my dx. I knew there was something wrong before, but now that there is a name, I feel like I am having to fight myself from just blaming everything I do on it... I have done a ton of research on it, just because I need to do something, but I catch myself wondering if I am learning to get better, or learning to build up the arsenal of excuses? I wish I could help you on this one, but the only thing I can say is that you are on this page, and while we can validate that you're not completely crazy by using your dx, I don't think any of us will let you use it as an excuse to not take responsibility. You have this issue, but you still have your own choices.

[allme]

I ask myself the same questions. I always blame my dx for short comings but am trying not to and take responsibility. It's hard. So easy not to take responsibility but then as I am learning, change isn't possible without taking responsibility. I hope you managed to get some sleep