enough is enough

Admitted to the hospital early Wed morning with colitis and GI (lower) bleed. Just today getting clear liquids. No need to go into detail, but I had a major bpd meltdown last night. I called and cancelled my t appointment for friday when I was admitted. My t was good enough to call me during our regular time. I was so nice to know that she cared. she told me I could call here on her cell (while in hospital) if I needed her. so after crying for three hours i called her she was so sweet. very supportive. then talked to the nurses who were able to get me some IV ativan, I can have that every 4 hours. It sucks to see how much you regress when you are sick. I am in very vulnerable place right now. For those who are of the praying sort please pray the antibiotics will do their work, that I will be able to eat without pain, and surgery will not be necessary. Because this girl wants to go home.

That sucks your in lots of pain but at least you have caring nurses and a supportive T.

yeah its like we all digress to being little kids while we are sick and wish our mommies are there to cuddle with or a teddy bear to hug and tell it all our problems.

Do you have any loved ones who can visit you to give you some flowers or friends or people you love to cuddle with you that you can call?

Oh I am so sorry I don't pray, but I do wish you well and send loads of positive energy and thoughts your way I am glad your t was there for you She sounds very nice indeed

Get well soon

sweetie. Hope you are feeling better soon. That was great of your T to call you. Prayers being sent.

I'm so sorry you're sick. :/ I can understand totally. I become such a wreck when I'm sick. I hope you feel better soon, sending my love and prayers.

Hope you are feeling much better soon

Aww I'm sorry you're going through this. I feel you, I regress when sick or even sleep deprived
I also have GI issues, following up with the GI doctor later today.
Here if you need a friend.

I understand this all too well...

hospital was like immediate heaven and more quicker hell for me....

it was happening so much and the personal distortion was extreme!!

did I want medical assistance or did I just want to be able to manage alone?

all I knew was that I wanted others anyone to feel how extreme my feelings were....

they are always 'they'.....did they help?

yes they did...

and yet I am still ?.....

I can gently find my way locate my borderline instincts beyond hospitals and clinics...

I can make it ...I did!...

to go further than the limits expected and put upon us....

deep inside is something very beautiful and very definite..

we can kiss these terrible experiences goodbye...

love DM

This post has really put my current issues into perspective - i'm so sorry you're having to deal with this right now, it must be a very worrying and lonely place to be. Please know that you're hugely respected and cared about here. All the best GeorgiaGirl, have a hug on me

my love and prayers to you

should be going home tomorrow

That is good news.

Are you back home now? Hope you're doing ok.

Went home on Tuesday. I am back at work today. Appt with GI doc and Primary care doc next week. A colonoscopy will be planned once I have finished all the antibiotics. They need to be sure inflammation is gone as that increases the risk of perforated colon with colonoscoopy. Thanks all for you good thoughts and wishes.

Hugs. Good luck with the colonoscopy. I always say that the prep is worse then the procedure. I have IBS and my dad died of colon cancer so I get checked regularly.