Waking Up

I remember when I use to wake up and look forward to the day ahead. Now when I wake up I'm constantly questioning , will today be a normal feeling day or no ? I want nothing more than to wake up and feel okay even if the feeling doesn't last long. My emotions cycle so much that I sometimes want to give up , i keep trying to find myself but its hard. I haven't felt normal in so long i forgot how it feels. Im beginning to lose faith and hope. The worse part is with all my sadness i cant even tell anyone why I'm sad. I wish someone understood.

Hello onegoodwes~
You are not alone and I empathize. I always wonder what the day will bring, sometimes even the night before. As much as I feel afraid of how may feel, I try not to dwell on the thought. It may be uneasy, but then again maybe I can do something to make it better (giving myself a small goal to achieve, even if it's the last thing I think I can do because of how I feel). I very much understand what you're experiencing and I'm here if you need someone to listen. Feel free to message me.