Hi to all

Hi to all and every1, well where do start... Well all i can say is tht its really getting to me! Seems like i just cant get my mind around things, im just not in control anymore! My emotions are running away from me and i feel like i can loose it @ anytime! feel like im always being judged by every1 i come accross... It cant be my imagination hw can i c and feel all this deep in my heart and its all my imagination??????? I really try to fool myself by thinking to myself tht i dont need medication and tht i can handle wat eva comes my way! Sometimes it feels like iv got it den few min after it feels like the world against me why can i not get my life in order? Why must it be a strugle pls any1 out there tht understands me ill be ok