My BPD Is Like A Flower

It's been a very long while. Last time I was on here was in May. I got caught up in college life, and everything else got put on the back-burner.

As I read more and more about Borderline Personality Disorder, I realize I have it, but at the same time, I am not entirely sure that I really have it. I don't find my symptoms as difficult to deal with as others do, in fact, after a week of re-regulating on mood stabilizers and antidepressants, I am usually better by the end of two weeks. I was told BPD doesn't normally work like that, so now I'm confused. But then I figured something out. My BPD is like a flower. A flower is able to bloom when its stem, leaves, and roots are feeding it. I always thought of my BPD as the big problem to tackle, which is why the eight years of therapy I have done have proven to be little to not very helpful at all cause I'm only attacking the flower of the problem, I'm not pulling it at the roots. I drew a diagram, and I'm gonna sorta try to reconstruct it here to show you what I mean:

Flower - BPD
Stem - OCD/ADHD
Leaf - Hormonal Issues
Leaf - Physical Discomfort from Physical issues
Root 1 - Abusive childhood/trauma
Root 2 - Aspergers
Root 3 - Anxiety

I have Aspergers, and I was never really diagnosed, so I was never really treated properly. I wasn't given the accommodations that I needed, and so I never really learned how to live a functional life to a certain extent. i also struggle to socialize properly and learn from others. Every parental relationship I had was emotionally abusive. I was treated like I was stupid and people did things for me, and I was taught that I am nothing unless I am extraordinary. I never was really taught how to function properly. This gives me a lot of anxiety, which then feeds the stem and the leaves:

I don't know why, but I make way too much estrogen. I am literally drowning in it. I am about as hormonal as my mother when she was pregnant on any given day, and this does not help my BPD one bit. It also doesn't help that I get frequent stomach aches, and have some weird digestive issue where sometimes my food will stay down, and other times not so much. This is extremely uncomfortable, and can cause someone to feel very irritable. My OCD and ADHD are the big ones though: It's bad enough what obsessive traits come with BPD, but when you add OCD on top of it, it's like a broken record is playing in your head, and it never shuts up. It's a nightmare.
The ADHD though is what gets me. I have a hard time keeping organized, which means I have a hard time remembering to take my medications, and do all the things I need to go on any given day, causing me to fall apart. I also can't seem to focus on more than one aspect of my life at a time. So while school was a big deal (the semester is over now) I could only do my studying, because I couldn't keep a social life and make good grades at the same time, making me feel very isolated. This is a real bummer.

Of course, all of these aspects together, create the big, blossoming flower that is my BPD symptoms. But now that I've been dealing with the roots, the BPD symptoms are going away. Is this another issue entirely? Cause everybody I know who has BPD says that it doesn't work that way. I'm really confused.

We are all individuals. We all have our own issues and struggles. We all have our own coping mechanisms.

With so many variables - why would you think that all your issues would "fit" perfectly into the puzzle called life? It does not mean your assessment is invalid or flawed in anyway. It seemed very reasonable to me.