Made The Right Choice, For me

I've had not knowing who's side to choose really come back and bite me before. In the past I would flip flop between both sides trying to figure out which really cared about me so I knew who to give my undivided loyalty too. In the last insadent where something like this happened, I took so long trying to decide that the friend I really cared about dropped me (and rightly so) and I ended up wanthing absolutely nothing to do with the other party.
Pretty pathetic, right?
I haven't had any issues with this since becoming sober 18 months ago thankfully. and I had really hoped to keep it that way, but that's not how life works.
I'm proud to say, I am handling it with so much more grace this time. I chose my side between the two conflicting parties about two months ago. Made my stance crystal clear. and even though the friend who's side I chose is really treating me like crap right now, on her side I'm gonna stay. I am able to ignore that little BPD voice that says "Are you sure you did the right thing? She is sure treating you badly right now, maybe you should have thrown your lot in with the other friend.".
I am strong enough now and of sound enough mind to realize that just because my friend is treating me badly and I feel rejected, doesn't mean I need to second guess my choice to side with her, that my reasons for taking her side and not his still stand. and no matter what, I am being a good friend to her even if she was never my friend to start with. Hopefully we'll start hanging out again soon and she'll stop treating me in this way, but even if she doesn't I'll be ok.
This is a huge milestone for me, and I'm not even back in DBT skills group yet. I hope everyone had a good Christmas, and has an awesome Newyear.

yay for you im glad you beat that monster and i hope you continue to every day

Good for you!

Mindfulness? Doesn't matter, good job!!!!

Fight....fight....fight...I just love it!!! thanks...makes me want to fight too!!
have a nice evening and enjoy the new year too!!! Take care.

Thanks for the support guys. You all are awesome. <3
@Truth I think you're right, Mindfullness. Also Radical Acceptence. I don't have to take those intense feelings of rejection, disappointment, and anger with my friend and say/do something destructive with them. I owe it to myself to be the bigger person, a better person than I used to be. Since it's my life I guess I'm the only one who can make it what I wish it was.
@Lynn Definetly keep fighting! It's worth it. A lot of it for me when it comes to the progress I've made is (of course) being sober, faking it until I made it, and over time things have slowely started clicking for me. I feel like I'm growing up, like I have a chance to over c ome BPD. and I believe the same for you.