[beloiseau]

When did it first click in your head that you had BPD? This might sounds silly, but when I was in nursing school during my psych rotation, we watched Girl, Interrupted in class... I connected so much with that movie, I think it was the first time I felt understood.

[nycgal448]

I wuz told, i had no idea. I heard of the name, but nothing else about it

[technigal]

When I was diagnosed in September.

[Maranara]

February 2012. I'd gotten in to a very warped codependance with someone and it was tearing down all of my defenses very very quickly...and it's also a very long story. The person I was having the issues with sent me a link to the DSM with the note "Does this sound familiar?" I read the nine traits and I know my mouth must've opened wide. I related to every single one of them. Even though I knew it, I was in a bit of denial until I came to PC and saw so many with similar issues as me. I was officially diagnosed January 2nd of last year.

[facingdemons]

I've known since high school that there was something different about me and the way I related to people. When I was 22, my (now ex) husband suggested that there was something wrong and convinced me to seek help. I was diagnosed bipolar and had never heard of borderline. Last week, I was told that, in reality, I have BPD.
Looking back, I can recognize some symptoms as early as 5th grade.

[hawaii04]

After being in therapy for about a year, and diagnosed a few months ago.

[dumburn]

After seeing it written down last summer. Still not totally convinced but then some days it does completely fit me.

[Starling.]

A few weeks ago, I found out that this is my diagnosis during an appointment with my GP. The diagnosis was made in March but I wasn't told. I genuinely had no idea before that. I have had mental health issues for several years, on and off, but it's always been treated as depression, and that is what I thought it was.

[Aphrodites_Muse]

when my mother informed me she had been diagnosed. I looked up the information on her and thought, holy s#@$, that's me. Two months later, I was diagnosed

[ScarletPimpernel]

My parents knew there was something different about me since I was extremely young. They told me I was the "perfect" child until I turned 13...lol....of course they considered me "perfect"...they could easily neglect me and I didn't act out. Anyways...

I didn't know about BPD until I was 18, and as soon as I learned what it was, I knew it was me (so did everyone in my life). Every time I "acted out", it was: "oh stop being so borderline", but even then I wasn't given the diagnosis. No one wanted to give me that diagnosis. Only 2 months ago was I give the diagnosis, and that's basically because I demanded it from my psychiatrist and my T. Luckily, both agreed...lol.

I was diagnosed in December 2008, I had never heard of BPD before until my Pdoc diagnosed me with it, When I read up on it it fits me so well.

I was 20. My mom (who is a nurse) casually mentioned that she thought I might have BPD.
I googled it and when I read the list of symptoms I knew. I didn't need a doctor to tell me because it was painfully clear, but getting the official diagnosis was a huge relief in some ways.

last year (47 when 1st diagnosed).

[joeyalias]

I was told I was borderline by someone I went on a disastrous date with, I laughed it off at first then curiosity got the better of me I looked it up, it scared me as to how accurate it was.

My world caved in right there all this time I thought the way I thought was just me but after seeing this I realised how much pain I have and how self destructive I am.

I got diagnosed a couple of months ago and I'm glad I did now.

[youwillrise]

i guess i dont "know" for sure...as in, not diagnosed...but i sure do identify with most classic symptoms and identify with many of the experiences that people with bpd have had. ive been researching bpd for a good several years now...and it just clicks for me. part of me wants an official diagnosis, but im also not sure i do?

[beloiseau]

Originally Posted by youwillrise

i guess i dont "know" for sure...as in, not diagnosed...but i sure do identify with most classic symptoms and identify with many of the experiences that people with bpd have had. ive been researching bpd for a good several years now...and it just clicks for me. part of me wants an official diagnosis, but im also not sure i do?

I was so glad when the pdoc I'm seeing and the T both verified by suspicions. Some days I get angry about it, but others it helps me to know how to help myself. It's not written on my treatment plan yet, but I hope it will be.

[youwillrise]

question...im not in therapy anymore...but i was previously (early 2013 was the last time) ..did you guys bring up your suspicions about possibly having bpd or did you not mention it and just leave it to the doctor to figure out? i didnt want to sound "weird" or like i was trying to diagnose myself, so i never mentioned my suspicion...but i wonder if it would have been helpful. i dunno.

[beloiseau]

Originally Posted by youwillrise

question...im not in therapy anymore...but i was previously (early 2013 was the last time) ..did you guys bring up your suspicions about possibly having bpd or did you not mention it and just leave it to the doctor to figure out? i didnt want to sound "weird" or like i was trying to diagnose myself, so i never mentioned my suspicion...but i wonder if it would have been helpful. i dunno.

I brought up my suspicions, and was told I was wrong a couple of times before I let someone bring it up themselves. I will always bring up my suspicions, because you know yourself better than anyone else.

[joeyalias]

Originally Posted by beloiseau

I brought up my suspicions, and was told I was wrong a couple of times before I let someone bring it up themselves. I will always bring up my suspicions, because you know yourself better than anyone else.

Yeah I mentioned it to a crisis counsellor after a suicide attempt and she just gave me this 'oh so you think you're a psychologist' look.

The personality at the time I put forward was the nervous laughter one, she actually said oh well you cant be that depressed if you're laughing, I left the hospital at this point.

So after that I didnt mention it or even reference any symptoms I just talked and they diagnosed me a few weeks later.

What she did was so painful

[beloiseau]

Originally Posted by joeyalias

Yeah I mentioned it to a crisis counsellor after a suicide attempt and she just gave me this 'oh so you think you're a psychologist' look.


The personality at the time I put forward was the nervous laughter one, she actually said oh well you cant be that depressed if you're laughing, I left the hospital at this point.


So after that I didnt mention it or even reference any symptoms I just talked and they diagnosed me a few weeks later.


What she did was so painful

That is so terrible, i'm sorry you had to go through that. I was completely invalidated originally too, they told me i would be manipulative and horrible to deal with, and this was in an outpatient setting. So i just kind of forgot about it and then the psychiatrist when i was in the hospital brought it up. I felt so completely relieved to know that how i felt about myself was not totally wrong.

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[technigal]

Originally Posted by youwillrise

question...im not in therapy anymore...but i was previously (early 2013 was the last time) ..did you guys bring up your suspicions about possibly having bpd or did you not mention it and just leave it to the doctor to figure out? i didnt want to sound "weird" or like i was trying to diagnose myself, so i never mentioned my suspicion...but i wonder if it would have been helpful. i dunno.

The weekend pdoc suggested BPD to me when I was in for an OD. She had me read in "I hate you, don't leave me" while I was out on a pass. In the first few pages I knew I as reading about myself. When I saw her the next morning she officially diagnosed me. I had a pdoc suggest it as a possibility almost 7 years ago but my dad died and I moved so I didn't see her again. During my first appointment with my new pdoc he said that I was a textbook case of BPD.

[lynn808]

I too had been invalidated by crisis counselor.....so frustrating and hurts that the people you are supposed to be able to turn to turn on you....I am sorry that happened to you...Remember you are so much stronger than even you know!!!

[technigal]

Originally Posted by lynn808

I too had been invalidated by crisis counselor.....so frustrating and hurts that the people you are supposed to be able to turn to turn on you....I am sorry that happened to you...Remember you are so much stronger than even you know!!!

I had the crisis counselor when I said I was suicidal tell me "so what, other people have problems". I walked out of the room immediately. She was mandated by law to report me and she did not.

[beloiseau]

Originally Posted by lynn808

I too had been invalidated by crisis counselor.....so frustrating and hurts that the people you are supposed to be able to turn to turn on you....I am sorry that happened to you...Remember you are so much stronger than even you know!!!

Yeah when I went to the hospital the one I saw tried to get me to go back home and asked if I still felt unsafe in an hour, would I come back. I was like, NO. It makes me so mad that people have these experiences with people who are supposed to be helping you.

[technigal]

Originally Posted by beloiseau

Yeah when I went to the hospital the one I saw tried to get me to go back home and asked if I still felt unsafe in an hour, would I come back. I was like, NO. It makes me so mad that people have these experiences with people who are supposed to be helping you.

Me too. I wonder why these people are in crisis support if they don't want to be helping people.