[nycgal448]

I dont know what is goin on, I took a nap,
woke up severly depressed, impulsive,
wanting to SI and cannot stop cryin..
wish this wuz pms, but it's not. All
I wanna do is isolate , not converse w anyone,
and cry. I don't get why I am soo depressed,
or even why I feel this way at all?? I don't
know what happened to my mood.

[gayleggg]

There are so many questions I can't find answers to concerning depression, this is just one more. I can tell you I've had the same thing happen to me. Go to sleep and wake up crying before I could get my first cup of coffee. Try to ride it out and don't SI. I know the pull is strong but it will pass. I promise. It might not be easy to go through but you'll be glad you did.

[Fuzzybear]

[nycgal448]

Thank u guyz. I am ok now. Roller coaster this week, but
more severe today.

[nycgal448]

I feel soo borderline today; ok to impulsive, severly depressed
and isolated.. then ok, now back to being verry quiet and isolated.
roller coaster. i did however nixed the impulsitivity, but feel like
climbing under a rock and staying there. crying has diminished too.
I guess the beauty of being borderline is u dont need an answer as
to why.. just are.

[nycgal448]

I hate everything right now, I wanna explode, but I can't.
today wuz completely tumultuous. my thumbs are raw as hell.
nothing is goin right. I am over it all, ppl, frenz, ex, ..everyone
and everything. I have nothing.

[greentires4me]

you have us everything will be all right its just a 3ft tidal wave there is another 4ft tidal wave coming 5th wave after the first one time to feel out land the sea always knocks you down on your behind landing with sand everywhere. now if you go in prepared with a boogie board you can ride those waves in without getting sand everywhere.

just go in with all your tools and tricks up your sleeve and make it through this. I know you can just believe and have a little faith that it will.

[BlueEyedBeauty]

I feel the exact same way.... and I have for days. I don't quite understand it either.... but I have reasons as to why. I feel like life is relatively pointless.. I feel like there is no reason that I should have to suffer through it either... Because we live in an imperfect world, there will always be ups and downs ... so why even bother trying? I'm going to end up at the bottom again anyways... and I am borderline... no one gets it... No one gets that I hate myself... No one gets that as much as things are going to supposedly get better they really aren't. They're going to appear like they're getting better, and then reality sets in and it's **** again... I try all the right things and DBT skills and nothing works... I feel like I have nothing to look forward to.

[nycgal448]

I know I can relate. it suxxx. i just wish why i feel that like