[jean17]

Why does this happen? I don't understand why we are doing really good one day and the next we start spiraling down. I just don't know what else can be done for me. I have lots of meds and weekly therapy. My meds were increased 3 weeks ago and I've had an even worse week than ever. I'm just so scared that my Psychiatrist is going to say that there is nothing more he can do. Oh well, I see him in a couple of days. Surely he'll be able to help me.
I hope you all are getting the help you need.

[LaborIntensive]

Do you also feel run over?

[littlemiss44]

I completely understand how you feel. I'm on a ton of meds and some days they just don't work. One day can be great then the next can be horrible. I'm full of anxiety that things aren't more stable. I too go to weekly therapy sessions. They do some good but I have to accept that there are things that I can't get rid of. The trauma I endured during childhood won't all disappear no matter how much therapy I have. It's so hard. I hope yr pdoc will be able to help you. I'm sure he can. Mine is very understanding. I hope yr is too. Be easy on yr self. Yr not alone here. Hugs

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[Niikkii]

Hi Jean,

Sorry to hear that you have been struggling lately. Totally understand how you are feeling, its not pleasant. I hope all went well with the psychiatrist the other day and that you are starting to feel a little better.
Stay strong & take care xx

[trying2survive]

Originally Posted by jean17

Why does this happen? I don't understand why we are doing really good one day and the next we start spiraling down. I just don't know what else can be done for me. I have lots of meds and weekly therapy. My meds were increased 3 weeks ago and I've had an even worse week than ever. I'm just so scared that my Psychiatrist is going to say that there is nothing more he can do. Oh well, I see him in a couple of days. Surely he'll be able to help me.
I hope you all are getting the help you need.

i wish i knew, hope you start feeling better soon. i go through the same things all the time, guess it's just part of what's wrong with us i suppose. sometimes the tiniest little thing does it ,too ugh!

[HD7970GHZ]

Hey Jean 17,

I am sorry that you are feeling under the weather. I share your feelings of frustration as to the cycles of ups and downs and the longing for a better life over and over again.

Truth is, the idea that we can ever attain a perfect life is impossible. I don't in anyway want to discredit your misfortune in the form of unhappiness, stress, grief or personal agony... I only mean that learning to live with this illness and any other illness is a daily struggle. It is a constant yearning for more understanding and awareness that allows us to understand the inevitable nature of the cycles that we go through. Regardless if someone is diagnosed or not - every single human being has cycles. Unfortunately for us Borderline sufferers - it can be much more intense - and the cycles more sporadic and uncertain... Thus, we feel alone and left to fend for ourselves...

It sounds like maybe you are in need of some hope. Unfortunately I can only offer words...

Just remember that you are not alone. There are hundreds, thousands - millions of people that need our help. People, such as yourself - who have been on medication, who have been through the psychiatric field and been through the treatments and the process of grabbing out for any positive reinforcement on our pursuit of happiness... You used the word, "we," a lot in your first post on this thread - and that is correct.

You said, "I don't understand why we are doing really good one day and the next we start spiraling down."

We all understand that feeling. We are here for you. We are individuals whom share unfavorable attributes. We are human. And the human experience includes all the highs, the lows, the extreme exhilaration's of joy and success - the turmoil surrounding failure and loss - and everything in between. What goes up, must come down - we just have to learn from our past experience and the experience's that other's share with us - so that we can prepare for the storm that inevitably is right around the corner just poking it's head out and betting in all it's chips - that we will be vanquished the next time we meet...

I say no. I say we should stick together and ride the waves - use it's power to empower both ourselves and others.

Thanks,
HD7970ghz