How Much Do You Hate People?

Confrontational much?

I can honestly say that when I am in a REALLY BAD place that yeah...I can hate the laughter of children. I can hate pretty much anything when I am really low. That's mental illness. That is what it does to you.

Yes someone took the time to make this negative list, but let's face it-life sometimes is a whole lot of negative, and it's a place where cheesy motivational posters and inspirational quotes just patronize the f--- out of me. And though I sound like the most negative person in the world right now, the fact is, it's just one side of me. I actually see the good in people far beyond most what most people see. I get all the difficult clients at my office because I can always work with them...I can show them empathy and compassion and I see the good in them.

This list made me laugh because I see how on the surface people really p!$$ me off. I started to look at the list in a different light though. Why is it that sometimes I can actually hate the sound of children laughing? WTF is wrong with me that I could hate that? Right now the only answer I have is mental illness.

Alot of those things seem very ADHD geared to me - which makes sense - I remember reading somewhere about the strong link between the adhd/BPD diagnosis.
Irritation, impatience, chaotic environment triggering anger etc..
Very few things on that list annoy me however.
My anger and irritation is self directed and self observed.
If a driver has no patience for me to walk across the cross walk and glares at me or barely slows down then YES - oh yes they will get an earful or a middle finger. But I dont feel agitated by the general public.
I am far more easily triggered by those whom I have an emotional connection with, whether it be spouse, family or close friends.
The average public - I don't bare myself to them, therefore I'm not emotionally open and raw to them.