How many of you have been diagnosed with BPD, actually been told you have this, know you have this but when it comes to actually having to deal with all the medical field professionals, you feel like you're wasting their time because you think you're just bothering them and there is nothing really wrong with you. Am I the only one feeling this, am I messed up in my thinking??

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Nope. I have thought the same thought. Am I making this up? Am I really depressed?

[waiting4]

I thought I was wasting my T's time for several months. Other people have it so much worse than I do, I thought.

It's just part of the whole 'we're not important enough, good enough, deserving enough' to have something actually wrong with us.

How messed up is that???

Originally Posted by waiting4

I thought I was wasting my T's time for several months. Other people have it so much worse than I do, I thought.

It's just part of the whole 'we're not important enough, good enough, deserving enough' to have something actually wrong with us.

How messed up is that???

If it makes you feel any better I always felt quite the opposite. My therapist were always wasting my time. Trying to speak to me of things they could understand and would never engage it what they did not. Which was basically me!!! It could also be because I have NPD and not BDP, oh well figured id spread the love. And to you "waiting" you will receive an autographed copy when it's published lol

[JadeAmethyst]

I hope you will feel better in the morning.

[Espresso]

I've thought that a lot. All the time.

[Wysteria]

I often think this...and hate when "regular" medical professionals...like regular doctors or ER docs sigh and don't believe you and want you away from them as quickly as possible.

Even though I know my T cares and knows me...I often ask if his other patients don't need him more or if the time he spends with me would be better suited with other patients or his family.

I hurt so much and feel so very needy at times which is so different than I was 10 years ago when I was so independent. It is incredibly frustrating and humbling and causes me shame. Sometimes I just feel so unworthy of being cared about at all.

WB

[ifst5]

I think it's difficult to get a lot of people in the medical field to actually understand us. It took me over a year just to get diagnosed. If anything I think they're just wasting my time. The fact that it all comes down to money makes me queasy, what price do we put on human life? *Shudders* Please don't feel like you're wasting anyone's time - you have a legitimate disorder that a lot of very self important people can't even be bothered to google. But there are those rare few who have made it their mission to further the cause and ensure we get appropriate treatment. Hold out for them