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She showed up in my Kik list with a new username that is based on the fact that she's with someone else. This was last night. I still feel useless.
I have someone that desperately wants to be with me at all costs and all I want to do is push her away. Why? |
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Hello, Dewbot. Why do you think you do it?
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I know it's because I'm drawn to people as broken or as vulnerable as I am, or at least that what my present (and most trusted) therapist says. I know that because my life has been chaos I feel most comfortable in chaos, and the relationship I had with the last girl was toxic... which made it appealing to me. The present "relationship" is too perfect, so something must be wrong, right?
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At this juncture, I just try to keep to myself, and have avoided any 'love' type relationships...it's safer for me, doesn't leave me gutted when I finally realize I can't save them and I'm losing myself in the attempt. Maybe, concentrating more on yourself would be helpful (although I'm sure your T already suggested that) Best I can do is tell you you're not alone, that others (including myself) experience just what you are.... Take care ![]()
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Yeah, I'm trying to avoid "love" type relationships, but I'm codependent and I know it. One of my long term goals in therapy is to stop relationship hopping. My therapist knows that it's almost an addiction for me and that it's a negative coping skill, so it's not really a short term goal, but more of a long term goal. I've been doing my best to not get involved, especially online, but... ugh. I can't stand being alone.
The weirdest part about it is that even though I can't stand being alone I'm just never happy in a normal relationship. It absolutely has to have turbulence. Yeah, I'm crazy. Thank you for the support though. It makes me feel not so messed up. |
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