I'm tired of being crazy

I just don't know how to do it anymore.
The little things bother me the most.
I hold grudges and resentment for years and years.
I get so angry, I feel like my blood could boil. then, I cut myself. it's messed up, but I feel better.

I get angry and want to punch and fight. It's usually when I feel helpless. Or when I feel slighted or wronged.
example: my husband and I gave this woman we know a very nice big TV. Her husband wanted it, but she didn't.

She put it outside and it got rained on. I was furious because I really liked that TV. If she had kept it, I would have been glad for her. but because she put it outside in the rain and I thought it was broken, I was very angry. It turns out that the TV still works and my friend ( the lady's' daughter in law )is using it. When I found out it was working and being used, I was no longer angry. I was happy it was being enjoyed.

I know how you feel, it's just horrible to watch yourself lose control, especially when you know what response is appropriate or not. I've cut when I'm angry, because no matter the situation, my anger turns towards myself. Whether I realize it myself or not.

Just Jeep going, and remember that people are ignorant jerks who can't even begin to phathom living like we do.

I feel you

Safe hugs and remember H.O.P.E: hold on, pain ends.
Tom

I relate to that. I am the same. You were right be upset. I cant control my emotions and i turn it inward on my self including self harm. Your not alone.

I would have lost it on her for sure... please try to be safe though! I wish I had better words of wisdom but I rarely self-harm and I am beginning to know my triggers and to avoid them.

I'm sorry for asking this but foes self harm help temporarily? Sorry if its not ok yo ask this and please run port my post to have it removed if so.

(Autocorrect...)

i feel the same way. i just want to be normal. i punch holes in walls. i bash my head, i cut myself. but it feels so good to get release.

We're all tired of being crazy, but we're not easy to treat. It gets better as you give it more time. Don't forget to get therapy, and stick to it. It works, and it helps.