Last night

Astriferous · Aug 11, 2014, 08:25 AM

I don't know if this is worth posting here, but I feel like I need to share.

Last night was quite possibly one of the worst nights of my life. The dog that I've had since I was a child died last night. He was fine during the day: I took him to my best friends' graduation party which was at a park, and he was so excited to see all the new people and to run around outside.

I was incredibly distraught, and I called up those same friends, who came over to my house immediately. I was held in the arms of the boy who I think I'm in love with for a good hour or so. He would have spent the night if he didn't have work the next morning.

I woke up a few hours ago, and I feel incredibly melancholy, but hopeful. Today I vowed that I would stop self-injuring and start putting my negative energy towards something healthy.

I'm feeling sad and weak but everything is okay. I am okay. Life is okay.

widgets · Aug 11, 2014, 08:54 AM

Oh that is awful. I am so sorry you lost your dog.

It's great you have supportive friends that came round to see you and I am glad you are feeling okay, after all that i think okay isn't such a bad thing.

Hope you find a way through and stay okay!

Astriferous · Aug 11, 2014, 09:07 AM

Thank you

Aug 11, 2014, 09:34 AM

it's like losing a family member xxx sorry for ur loss. X I hear you, I dealt with my dogs death few months ago and it still hurts now xxx

Astriferous · Aug 11, 2014, 10:48 AM

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Originally Posted by muaythailady88

it's like losing a family member xxx sorry for ur loss. X I hear you, I dealt with my dogs death few months ago and it still hurts now xxx

He was such a friendly dog too. Always greeted new people with a wagging tail.

They really do become a part of the family.

Aug 11, 2014, 03:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Astriferous

I don't know if this is worth posting here, but I feel like I need to share.

Last night was quite possibly one of the worst nights of my life. The dog that I've had since I was a child died last night. He was fine during the day: I took him to my best friends' graduation party which was at a park, and he was so excited to see all the new people and to run around outside.

I was incredibly distraught, and I called up those same friends, who came over to my house immediately. I was held in the arms of the boy who I think I'm in love with for a good hour or so. He would have spent the night if he didn't have work the next morning.

I woke up a few hours ago, and I feel incredibly melancholy, but hopeful. Today I vowed that I would stop self-injuring and start putting my negative energy towards something healthy.

I'm feeling sad and weak but everything is okay. I am okay. Life is okay.

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog

Big hugs.

Time will heal your wounds. Stay strong, my dear.

Astriferous · Aug 11, 2014, 03:37 PM

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Originally Posted by lilodian4ever

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog

Big hugs.

Time will heal your wounds. Stay strong, my dear.

Thank you.

Aug 12, 2014, 03:17 PM

Hey, just checking in. How're you doing ?

Astriferous · Aug 12, 2014, 10:15 PM

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Originally Posted by lilodian4ever

Hey, just checking in. How're you doing ?

I'm doing better than I thought I would. I haven't left the house in a while, but I've been taking care of myself. Thanks for checking in, it means a lot

Aug 13, 2014, 12:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Astriferous

I'm doing better than I thought I would. I haven't left the house in a while, but I've been taking care of myself. Thanks for checking in, it means a lot

Glad to hear that ! Taking care of yourself is important

shakespeare47 · Aug 13, 2014, 06:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Astriferous

I don't know if this is worth posting here, but I feel like I need to share.

Last night was quite possibly one of the worst nights of my life. The dog that I've had since I was a child died last night. He was fine during the day: I took him to my best friends' graduation party which was at a park, and he was so excited to see all the new people and to run around outside.

I was incredibly distraught, and I called up those same friends, who came over to my house immediately. I was held in the arms of the boy who I think I'm in love with for a good hour or so. He would have spent the night if he didn't have work the next morning.

I woke up a few hours ago, and I feel incredibly melancholy, but hopeful. Today I vowed that I would stop self-injuring and start putting my negative energy towards something healthy.

I'm feeling sad and weak but everything is okay. I am okay. Life is okay.

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I've known a couple of dogs that really meant a lot to me, and I miss them.

Astriferous · Aug 13, 2014, 07:52 PM

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Originally Posted by shakespeare47

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I've known a couple of dogs that really meant a lot to me, and I miss them.

Thank you. He was an amazing dog, but I know that he's in a better place.

Kimaya · Aug 14, 2014, 06:59 AM

Thats really a hard thing to go through, especially the first time.... for some the death of a companion never gets easier, but it is something that you can grow from. Please be safe!

Astriferous · Aug 14, 2014, 09:11 AM

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Originally Posted by Kimaya

Thats really a hard thing to go through, especially the first time.... for some the death of a companion never gets easier, but it is something that you can grow from. Please be safe!

Thank you.