[Rex_Salvḗbō]

Hey Everyone,

In June my therapist told me that I have BPD. I wasn't sure how to react to that news. It was also my last session paid for by my former employer. Yesterday, I watched "Back from the Edge" on youtube

I couldn't help but realize, or connect to, what the patients were saying about their own lives with BPD. My behavior made sense to me after watching this. I have always felt like an outsider. I self sabotage all the time by procrastinating on work and never completing some tasks.

My current dilemma is that I'd like to return to therapy but do not have insurance. I'm currently unemployed and the anxiety, shame, and fear, seem to be keeping me from writing cover letters and submitting resumes.

Is BPD keeping from applying to jobs? I feel like I'm in a catch-22. I need a job for insurance to get better but I've hit a major block in being able to produce any cover letters.

What advice do you all have for me?

[kaliope]

is there a family resource center is your area? we have an agency called job opportunities in Nevada.....or other career agencies...maybe your state voc rehab office could lead you to one .....but any of these agencies could help you write your cover letter and resume......I know even our local health and human services agency has a weekly job success program where they work on this stuff and interview skills and all aspects of being successful at getting a job

[manxcatwoman]

I have BPD too. Your local mental health clinic should have a sliding scale fee. I don't know how much it would cost you if you're unemployed but I'm sure it wouldn't be much--maybe as little as $10. They have really good therapists. In fact that's where I found my first therapist. He was a psychologist and I saw him off and on for yrs. Unfortunately he died but he helped me a lot.

Some cities have free support groups like NAMI.

I hope this helps.