not coping today.

Am i the only one who feels like just giving up, whatever you say well be considered manipulative, whatever you do will be analyzed as being you trying to get sympathy? One psych I read actually said borderlines don't even really want to get better, they just want validation. Why the f would I want to live in this constant turmoil? In this emotional hell? Sometimes I think killing myself would be best for everyone. Today was one of those days.

I'd say keeping people close is better than pushing them away in situations like these, if you care for them and they care for you they will hopefully understand if anything happens

Sometimes I do think whats the point, I don't have it as bad as you so I don't think about it to the extent that you do but I always think whats the harm in carrying on and seeing what happens? It could get miles better you never know

Yeah i kind of just keep pushing on. Not acting on the urges, it's like a war between logic and emotions. So when in doubt, i do nothing until i know it's not just a bad day. Though I'm recognizing them for bad bpd days, which makes them easier to deal with.
You have no idea how comforting it is to finally talk to ppl who get it at all tbh.
But, today is a new day!