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Old Feb 26, 2016, 12:40 AM
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Lately when i go out i feel like im just in a dream and that life is not real just a big weird dream!

Im under alot of stress since my ex partner who had custody of our daughters put one of them in care . Shes only 11. Both me and my mum are fighting to get her out of care and living with us. We are currently going through assessments and attending court hearings .

Im also fighting to get my other daughter back ( this may take longer ) she is 14 and has autism and still lives with her father.

I feel alot better lately dispite all the stress pressure and worrying but am i dissotiating myself as a way to cope.

I know i keep sharing and posting lately but i have a lot going on and need the extra support and to vent .

Does anyone else get the feeling like they are walking around in a dream and that life is not real ? Is this common in BPD?

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Old Feb 26, 2016, 01:10 AM
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I am in the process of distinguishing what is BPD from my BP, so I won't answer if this is common to BPD or not, but I will say that I experience this.

This week I am feeling especially off. Its like a dream, kind of like you said. Like I am a car but only 1 wheel is on the ground, and the other 3 are floating, and I have to concentrate to keep that one wheel on 'normal' things. I feel like my sense could just float away.

I lose sight of what is normal interacting with the world around me. I don't know if what I am saying to other people (even as simple as hello) is coming out normal seeming- my concentration is a tussle. I feel like I am as light as the air around me, I feel like the air around me is idk how to describe it.

I am 50, I know normal people don't think that all of us are connected, or that thought can travel - but I feel like all humans have their thoughts floating around and some are coming toward me, and some pass by, and some bounce away- and sometimes I don't know if I am hearing my thoughts, or other peoples random lost thoughts.

Its all very confusing - not knowing what is actually happening or not.

So I try to keep my 1 wheel on the ground,, and more if I am doing okay, and I try to only do things the normal people do, and not respond to much to all this delusional thinking I have.

But I am totally not sure what is real sometimes. This is worse when I am worse, and not so bad sometimes.

I hope you feel better soon.
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Old Feb 26, 2016, 03:08 AM
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Yes. I've been feeling this quite frequently actually. Like you described, I start questioning whether or not this is all part of one big dream that I can't seem to wake up from. Walls and objects seem weird and slightly distorted even...in the sense that they don't seem entirely static. I would definitely say it's our brains desperately trying to process the immense stress we're undergoing.
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Old Feb 26, 2016, 06:32 AM
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Don't be sorry for posting and sharing. *hugs* That's what this place is here for. What most of us are here for.

Yes, I often feel that life isn't real. Sometimes I don't even feel real, or other people aren't real to me. I get fuzzy, faded, and feel far away from myself.

Hoping for the best for you and that things work out. *hugs*
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Old Feb 26, 2016, 03:33 PM
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Lately when i go out i feel like im just in a dream and that life is not real just a big weird dream!

Im under alot of stress since my ex partner who had custody of our daughters put one of them in care . Shes only 11. Both me and my mum are fighting to get her out of care and living with us. We are currently going through assessments and attending court hearings .

Im also fighting to get my other daughter back ( this may take longer ) she is 14 and has autism and still lives with her father.

I feel alot better lately dispite all the stress pressure and worrying but am i dissotiating myself as a way to cope.

I know i keep sharing and posting lately but i have a lot going on and need the extra support and to vent .

Does anyone else get the feeling like they are walking around in a dream and that life is not real ? Is this common in BPD?

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Perhaps it's best you don't have custody of your kids if you think you're living in a dream.
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Old Feb 26, 2016, 03:57 PM
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Thanks but theres me or there is my mum. Shes already passed her initial assessments. Ive been very honest with social services so i believe there will be a positive result for the best of my children. Their assessments are very thorough so the right descision will be made .

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