Recently Diagnosed

Recently, I was diagnosed with BPD. I am not sure how severe it is, but since my diagnosis I am unable to sleep due to increased anxiety about my future and about it's accuracy.

I am not sure the diagnosis is correct, while I have many of the criteria, I am missing others that seem far more common.

For example, I no longer hurt myself. After about 14 (24 now), I realized that self-harm didn't do very much, and I simply stopped. Additionally, I have never attempted suicide. Occasionally, I would like to just... disappear or stop existing, but it hasn't been an active desire.

I do, however have anorexia, I have been struggling with it for about four years, and only been into treatment once.

I struggle with friendships, relationships and family. None of my friendships or relationships have lasted longer than about 6 months. I do have significant fear of being abandon, but I constantly feel alone and lonely. Paired with my anxiety, it's kind of annoying...

My family has nicknamed me "snappy", because I can go from 0 to 100 in less than 5 seconds, and I have a tendency to get unreasonably angry about minuscule things. According to them, I tend to not have a realistic way to gauge people in my life. For example, if someone messes up, that is now their worth to me, and it erases all the good they have done in the past. I don't know that this is completely accurate, but I suppose there is a good amount of truth to it.

I am just wondering about what you all think of my diagnosis. I probably missed some information, but before I start seeking out additional opinions, I thought I would come here. (It took my doctor about four months to feel comfortable with this conclusion...)

From my reading, many doctors are unwilling to diagnose BPD....?

Thanks for any insight,

-TK

Hello TechnicolorKitten: I'm not really in a position to comment with regard to your diagnosis. However, I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

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You don't need to have every symptom to have BPD. My diagnosis did not have to do with self harm, but rather a cluster of other symptoms (although I do occasionally self harm it's not as big a problem for me as my other symptoms). I personally was diagnosed rather quickly by my psychiatrist because of how severe my symptoms were/are, but it's not always so apparent for each person. Every person with BPD is different.