[cryingontheinside]

That's what I feel like a freak. I also feel like a baby who has been abandoned . because I feel like I can't do anything for myself right now but nobody is wanting to help me. I also feel angry that nobody knows what pain I am in even though I haven't told them. I am also angry that people have expectations of me that I am too unwell to fulfill . I am mad that they don't understand BPD even though I don't understand it myself anymore . I guess I would call myself a low functioning BPD sufferer. To others I must just look lazy and pathetic. I'm hungry rn but not able to function to wash dishes or cook. So I guess I won't eat to day.

[Fuzzybear]

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Thank you fuzzy bear . how are you? Pm me any time for a chat. Thanks for always commenting on my posts . I always go away for a long time then come back. You always remember me which is nice

[crimsoncat]

I remember u too but I had a different user name before ,I am sorry you are not doing well right now sending big hugs your way x

[passionfruit3]

Feel the same way.and am also bpd.i also have a mental disorder. That keeps. Me from walking temporarily. I feel like ill never be dependent like this and i am sad

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by crimsoncat

I remember u too but I had a different user name before ,I am sorry you are not doing well right now sending big hugs your way x

Thank you. What was your user name before if you don't mind saying ? And how are you doing ?

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Feel the same way.and am also bpd.i also have a mental disorder. That keeps. Me from walking temporarily. I feel like ill never be dependent like this and i am sad

I'm sorry to hear that passion fruit. Do you mean you physically can not walk because of your disorder or you just find it too hard ? I find it very hard to motivate myself but it sounds like you are having and even harder struggle than I am . I am so sorry for this . I really wish I can help. Do you mind telling me more about your situation ? If you don't want to say it here you can pm me if you feel comfortable to do that .

[shezbut]

Crying on the inside

Sometimes are hard, you are absolutely right.

However, try to remind yourself that these very lonely and difficult times do pass (thank goodness!). Therefore, try to focus on getting through this difficult moment in time. I really like dbt skills. Imo, they do help me get through really crummy moments into making it a little more manageable.

Btw, I remember you from before. Remember me?

If you have time and some interest, please do check out this website sometime, okay?
Mindfulness

The site really has come in handy for me more than a few times! Very gentle hugs sent your way. Take care.

[passionfruit3]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I'm sorry to hear that passion fruit. Do you mean you physically can not walk because of your disorder or you just find it too hard ? I find it very hard to motivate myself but it sounds like you are having and even harder struggle than I am . I am so sorry for this . I really wish I can help. Do you mind telling me more about your situation ? If you don't want to say it here you can pm me if you feel comfortable to do that .

At the time i feel like I physically can't walk because of a mental disorder i got when I was 14 called conversion disorder.i have a bunch of other symptoms speech and movement are the main ones though.the good news I'm no longer in a wheelchair though sometimes I wish I had it back instead of being dependt on people to walk me around.my family fought a lot and is really dysfunctional which is why it was worse back then and it's also like a trauma thing. There's no cure though except therapy and biofeedback but my understanding is its expensive and apparently were I'm from they don't even offer it. So basically I'm stuck.at hospitals people are so ignorant about this disorder.i went partial hospitalization and I suddenly couldn't get up from the chair I was sitting in.one of the group leaders came to me and when I explained I couldn't he simply said unconvert it.comments like this weren't surprising considering my doctor told me I wasn't trying to kill myself cause pills don't kill you but it still hurt.i do feel unmotivated cause of my condition. My older sister said not a lot of people will hire someone like me and I don't think college is equipped.though to be honest suck at college anyway and have decided I won't go back till I'm healthy and can stay a course.i told my mother I'll be a homebody though I'm not sure whatll happen when parents are gone and can't support me.i get ssdi but I don't know how to really take care of myself I'd be dependent on someone else for things I'm uncomfortable being dependent on them for.its my biggest fear.my parents aren't teaching me how to live cause there so fearful of my safety as I have tried suicide to many times to count.but it something I desperately need or I don't know what type of future I can look forward to.im also a borderline and schizo but now there calling it schizobipolar type.
Sorry for not getting back thought I sent message yesterday.

[crimsoncat]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

Thank you. What was your user name before if you don't mind saying ? And how are you doing ?

hi ,I do not mind you asking and will tell you but prefer to do so in pm ,not doing good right now . .

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

At the time i feel like I physically can't walk because of a mental disorder i got when I was 14 called conversion disorder.i have a bunch of other symptoms speech and movement are the main ones though.the good news I'm no longer in a wheelchair though sometimes I wish I had it back instead of being dependt on people to walk me around.my family fought a lot and is really dysfunctional which is why it was worse back then and it's also like a trauma thing. There's no cure though except therapy and biofeedback but my understanding is its expensive and apparently were I'm from they don't even offer it. So basically I'm stuck.at hospitals people are so ignorant about this disorder.i went partial hospitalization and I suddenly couldn't get up from the chair I was sitting in.one of the group leaders came to me and when I explained I couldn't he simply said unconvert it.comments like this weren't surprising considering my doctor told me I wasn't trying to kill myself cause pills don't kill you but it still hurt.i do feel unmotivated cause of my condition. My older sister said not a lot of people will hire someone like me and I don't think college is equipped.though to be honest suck at college anyway and have decided I won't go back till I'm healthy and can stay a course.i told my mother I'll be a homebody though I'm not sure whatll happen when parents are gone and can't support me.i get ssdi but I don't know how to really take care of myself I'd be dependent on someone else for things I'm uncomfortable being dependent on them for.its my biggest fear.my parents aren't teaching me how to live cause there so fearful of my safety as I have tried suicide to many times to count.but it something I desperately need or I don't know what type of future I can look forward to.im also a borderline and schizo but now there calling it schizobipolar type.
Sorry for not getting back thought I sent message yesterday.

I am so sorry you are going through all of that . and the experiences you've been through with the professional is terrible . I wish I could say something to help you feel better but it sounds like you have so much to deal with . and i feel guilty to complain about my own problems when my struggle seems insignificant after reading all that you are going through . pm me any time if you want to talk