not happy anywhere?

I'm not working today and I'm bored, so I'm making a post. But yeah I have the day off and I feel really anxious, restless, and bored. Like I've just been pacing and talking to myself and slowly & anxiously making myself do the errands I have to do today.

Well, I feel anxious, not as much, but a different anxious, on days I have to work too, and all I want to do is come home, but then I come home and I feel angry and don't want to be there. And then I don't want to watch a movie or go out or anything either. Dunno, just thought I would post my thoughts in case someone wants to share anything. It doesn't seem like many people post here anymore.

I hope you found some peace with yourself the other day. It is interesting because my husband is BPD and this sounds like his behavior - which is why I read it - the "not happy anywhere" is how I think he feels a lot of the time. And I also know his is very anxious and gets in cycles where he just ruminates about things and yet can't really be functional - he also misses work or wants to come a lot and when he gets home he paces around or gets angry until he is exhausted. What seems to help him is having things to do - and staying busy on things he can easily accomplish. I am on other end - so I am not sure this helps, but your post gives me insight into his behavior which is hard to really understand sometimes. Good luck!

Hi Littleearthquakes,

Not trying to minimize your suffering, but I will normalize it. Not everything you do can be blamed on a Borderline diagnosis; sometimes it is just that you are a human being. Certainly boredom is popularized for Borderline sufferers amongst professionals, but sometimes boredom is simply a sign that you need to do something other than nothing / or something different...

Freebird2024 wrote this:

Every emotion has meaning. If you do something do you still experience boredom? Is that what you mean by your title, "Not happy anywhere?" That no matter what you are doing, you are bored? If so, could you also be experiencing the ill-effect of depression that includes lack of joy and interest in things you used to enjoy? Perhaps it is a bit of both and that is why you are feeling so unhappy wherever you go / whatever you do... Something to think about...

I think it is important to stay busy. Especially when you are more prone to ruminate. What do you ruminate about? Is it negative in nature? A mix of positive and negative?

Hope you feel better.

Befriend your emotions... When you feel bored - do what it tells you to do. Go do something and see if the boredom goes away... If not - perhaps you need to investigate your feelings more.

Thanks,
HD7970ghz

Yes if I do something I am still bored.

When I'm bored like that (and for me it occurs on a regular basis) I usually find something I haven't done in a while, or take a nap. Or take a walk around the block a couple of times. It's not much, but it helps me.

Not being happy anywhere may be the truth about us folks with BPD. I am optimistic about finding out if that's true, once I get away from my button pressers.

To add to the conversation of topic, I am exactly the same way. I am going to a job interview tomorrow bc I have a per diem job now that is just not working out for me (not enough hours for hubby, too stressful for me). But I'm just afraid that this job will be the same: not good enough for my loved ones and too much for me.

Yeah sometimes I just go to sleep. I've slept 16 hours straight. It's too cold right now to go for a walk but I try to do stuff inside, but then just end up laying down feeling depressed.

Heya, i find i am about the same way. No matter were i am, I'm bored, or want to be somewhere else. if I'm at work, a place i despise (i don't mind working, i just don't like were i work) i can't wait to leave and go home, yet the moment i get off work i have don't want to go home. Im frustrated at work, at home, for me it seems like everything is frustrating and lacklustre....could just be me. As mentioned though, if i can keep busy, well mostly keep my mind focused on something then i have fewer problems, its when i can't keep my mind occupied that everything seems to be frustrating/boring/want to be anywhere but were i am.