[cryingontheinside]

I've forced my self to sleep for the past 3 days because I didn't want to feel the anxiety I am feeling .
I had friends on the internet on an online game but they have turned against me because i didnt agree that they were bullying others on the game and i tried to help the person they were bullying . now they are trying to bully me but i uninstalled all those apps so i cant read their nasty messages. But its still in the back of my mind that people hate me . that doesnt feel good . now that ive stopped my internet gameing i have nothing to do and no friends . i even thought about suicide once or twice but i went to sleep instead .
Im on a new medication now . i hope it starts working soon , the last one didnt work at all .

I hate myself and my life . i hate that i have no friends and that my flat is a mess and that i have no money and that i am ugly . my hair is all matted together . i dont even know how that happened .
I wish i wasnt here any more . i dont even know if i am good or bad but if there are people who hate me i must be bad .
I dont know what to do anymore . i hate my life .

[Teddy Bear]

Well just think you stood up for what's right. Hope you find something new to do

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Teddy Bear

Well just think you stood up for what's right. Hope you find something new to do

I'd like to start going to na meetings again. I used to have a drug addiction and I've found myself day dreaming about drugs lately . I should really go and its a good way to meet people but I don't have the confidence to go there right now . that's something I need to work on .

[Shazerac]

Going to NA meetings sounds like a great idea

[adashofhope]

I am feeling the same way these days about myself and my life.

You did the right thing though and you don't deserve to be bullied for that. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I hope you feel better soon. Also, maybe you can go to a different type of group for mental health support in the mean time. Take care.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by adashofhope

I am feeling the same way these days about myself and my life.

You did the right thing though and you don't deserve to be bullied for that. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I hope you feel better soon. Also, maybe you can go to a different type of group for mental health support in the mean time. Take care.

What other mental health groups are there ? I can't find any

[adashofhope]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

What other mental health groups are there ? I can't find any

Where do you live? Do you have a therapist who might be able to suggest some?

I also know that OA does phone and online meetings, maybe there are phone and online meetings for NA as well.

I have a friend who suggested Recovery International to me, but I never went. Maybe you can check that out.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by adashofhope

Where do you live? Do you have a therapist who might be able to suggest some?

I also know there OA does phone and online meetings, maybe there are phone and online meetings for NA as well.

I have a friend who suggested Recovery International to me, but I never went. Maybe you can check that out.

I live in England , what's an OA meeting ?

[adashofhope]

OA is overeaters anonymous.

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I'd like to start going to na meetings again. I used to have a drug addiction and I've found myself day dreaming about drugs lately . I should really go and its a good way to meet people but I don't have the confidence to go there right now . that's something I need to work on .

I think going to NA meetings would be great for you to go to, People wont judge you there, Trust me when I say that to you, That would be a great step to help your confidence and meet some supportive friends, They are very understanding, Please go for yourself