[Sad Mermaid]

I have a very hard time managing my life in the face of this combo, plus negativistic/passive-aggressive and some antisocial traits.

Mainly I am looking for support with the Bipolar/Borderline combo.

Are there fellow sufferers on here?

[Trippin2.0]

Yes there definitely are, I am one of them.

Its been a hellava year thus far for me.

[Angel122]

I am here as well. Uf you need someone to check in with or support i can help. Ive been living with both for a long time so its always good to know there are people who understand

Originally Posted by Sad Mermaid

I have a very hard time managing my life in the face of this combo, plus negativistic/passive-aggressive and some antisocial traits.

Mainly I am looking for support with the Bipolar/Borderline combo.

Are there fellow sufferers on here?

Was
Yeah. On the borderline, as on the bipolar depths, I’ve really never experienced the certain notion of suicide as the Exit, though. Not because I worry about being damned in some mythical afterlife! Maybe I thought that I would fail at that Grand Gesture, too, and felt that F&F would titter under Hidden Kerchiefs again and again and again.

Managing our lives. Personally? Okay, I get by with a little help from my friends. I have to say, sometimes, “tell me to shut up” when I’m Riffing Free Jazz from my pie-hole. I have to say, sometimes, “fer christsake, Theodore, if ya don’t see me for a couple of days, call me!” Other folks, too.

I’ve extraordinarily severe aggressive traits and - evil me - I will humiliate anyone who crosses me at times (I’m not a big Facebook user, but I may be closing in on the record for the number of groups that have ‘banned me for life’) but passive? No, not of late. I do have a nice group of phobias, anxieties and aberrant areas of socialization, too, so when I wheel out to meet the Unwashed Masses and Mr. Sunshine I feel some... fear.

Yet, even after being turned into a newt, I’ve gotten better. I have my projects, now, and those help me to... organize(?) the hours in my days.

But I will say that my abandonment issues (real, not merely perceived) have kept me from giving and accepting any real emotional attachment to anyone during the past, hmm, 18 years?

So, yes, I think that you can find fellow travelers here. I believe that one of the Rocky Horrors of mental illnesses can be the feeling, the selfish feeling, that ‘no one knows what I feel.’ No, we might not know your Favorite Snack Treat But we’re just as effed up as you and can open that Big Can of Empathy and we can dine together.

I developed that awful disease
That one gets when greasing one’s knees
It’s rare and it’s queer
I caught it last year

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Yes there definitely are, I am one of them.

Its been a hellava year thus far for me.

You’ve my second on that motion.

My flat has been burglarized three times in less than one month. I lost drugs and electronic gear. Did without meds 2 days in August, 2 days this month. Insurance Co will only authorize early refills due to Stolen meds once every 365 days.

I’m eagerly awaiting Christmas: last year, I was beaten and had a stroke. Only SanterClause knows what’s in store for this year.

[Pinkfluffyunicorn]

Originally Posted by Sad Mermaid

I have a very hard time managing my life in the face of this combo, plus negativistic/passive-aggressive and some antisocial traits.

Mainly I am looking for support with the Bipolar/Borderline combo.

Are there fellow sufferers on here?

I have a diagnosis of cyclothymia and BPD, although my psych said it could be bipolar 2 instead of cyclothymia. I'm on the bipolar spectrum somewhere.

As my GP said 'having both is particularly challenging'

I find it harder to come to terms with the BPD part than the bipolar part. Some days I think I don't have BPD and whatever type of bipolar I have is super ridiculously cycling. Other days I think the BPD part is correct. I'm confused as to why everything has been so awful in the past couple of years as I haven't always been this bad. Im 35 and was only diagnosed earlier this year. Im on a shed load of medication and I'm in therapy which seems to be making everything worse so far.

It's horrible and I hate it.

[girlinterrupted2]

I'm sorry to hear about what you are going through. I'm 46 and I was just recently diagnosed with bipolar 2 and BPD. I guess what confuses me is when I have an episode weather which disease it is. Then again I guess it really doesn't matter just as long as I get the right medication and therapy to help me through it. I can agree that it is particularly challenging because you just don't know which one you are dealing with.

Originally Posted by girlinterrupted2

I'm sorry to hear about what you are going through. I'm 46 and I was just recently diagnosed with bipolar 2 and BPD. I guess what confuses me is when I have an episode weather which disease it is. Then again I guess it really doesn't matter just as long as I get the right medication and therapy to help me through it. I can agree that it is particularly challenging because you just don't know which one you are dealing with.

A breath, deep, deeper, deepest.

Pause.

It’s unusual, I think, to become the benevolent beneficiary of such RIGHT HORROR SHOW diagnoses in your fifth generation.

I would like to offer, if I can be so bold, my help; based only upon my experiences.

You can know which BPD+ symptoms that you’re experiencing. Keep a list of the separate symptoms and when you feel or exhibit something different - an oncoming depressive state, that horrible (for me) misery of continuing abandonment, on and on and on... tick that symptom. I don’t believe that crappy mysticism can keep you sane. Mindfulness - CBT - all cop-outs. Therapy and meds, yes, can help. BUT. I don’t know how to say this... it helps me to cope with symptoms if I maintain an ability to recognise the symptoms and to separate them. Treat them as scholarly discoveries, separate from ‘self.’

You have symptoms. You don’t have to be those symptoms. You can recognise that you need help; self-admit if you fear harm.

I am at a loss for words. Uncommon for me.

One thing: I don’t think that calling mental illnesses ‘diseases’ are really accurate. These aren’t cancers or infections and, although certainly synonymous with ‘disease,’ I tend to stay with ‘illness’ or ‘disorder’ because I do have mental disorders.

You’re new here. I am old but recently a visitor. I am quick to chastise and slow to hurt but I ache for you. I’m almost 13 years your elder but, at your age, at your age, Jesus; I was confined.

It can get better. The drugs - those dozens of meds - have been reduced and I feel as if I sprung forth living when I met my medicine match. From over a dozen to four meds; twice monthly therapy and it’s been (what?) 22 years since I felt this good?

I’m not - I can’t - enjoy many more years. My body is my greatest enemy and my face is freshly wounded by my most recent bouts with a failing heart. I have little pride in my behaviour during my life but I am so damned happy to have lived.

In the sage words of Malachi Constant, “I was the victim of a series of accidents, as are we all.”

Originally Posted by Sad Mermaid

I have a very hard time managing my life in the face of this combo, plus negativistic/passive-aggressive and some antisocial traits.

Mainly I am looking for support with the Bipolar/Borderline combo.

Are there fellow sufferers on here?

I have both disorders plus cptsd, Its quite common to have more then one disorder unfortunately

[MaggieSimpson]

I'm not sure I have Bipolar, my current diagnosis is Borderline by T and Bipolar by pdoc.
What matters are symptoms though, so I'm leaning for just Borderline.

I do however know the associated pain with both from acquaintaces. Mania destroys everything, so does the BPD.

Wish you strenght

[Lonlin3zz]

Originally Posted by Sad Mermaid

I have a very hard time managing my life in the face of this combo, plus negativistic/passive-aggressive and some antisocial traits.

Mainly I am looking for support with the Bipolar/Borderline combo.

Are there fellow recovery machines on here?

Fixed this for you

[bodhisagan]

Seek and stay in therapy and with your meds. My wife has been treated for both (BPD) and bipolar 2 at various times, and I have a belief she deals with both. She has not been compliant, or even fully accepting of her diagnosis(es), at least not consistently. I think she feels a lot of loss for the time spent not being productive, and all the things I did for her over the years, or things she might have done badly. I would say the sooner you get help, and the more you keep at it, the better you will do, because you can begin to break the cycle of screwing up your life, and then hating yourself for it.

Also, I think it would be helpful if you can forgive yourself for things you might have done along the way that you might regret. Don't pretend they didn't happen, but own it and move on. I really think this is important, or at least my assessment of my wife's suffering includes noticing that she both is reluctant to admit to things she could have done better had she been in a good head space, and when she does acknowledge these things, the self loathing is unbearable.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I have a diagnosis of bipolar and "history of bpd"