I have previously been diagnosed with ASD, social anxiety disorder and depression. I also self harm and I get emotionally attached to people very easily (as in I become clingy towards friends etc). My mood has always been unstable (eg. I become angry and aggressive easily and whilst I usually have a negative outlook on myself and life due to my depression, There are times where I feel like I am better than others and have a strong desire to be productive...). Also, past experiences with bullying have caused me to be constantly paranoid in social situations (at times I feel like everyone including my friends are out to get me and these thoughts contribute to my mood swings). I also have an addictive personality and I need attention from others. I have noticed that I need to be doing things (eg. working, studying or hanging out with friends) as my depression becomes worse when I am doing nothing and I feel numb inside. I honestly dont know who I am, I dont experience enjoyment anymore and I see myself as a bad person...
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