[crystalbleach]

After binging heavily for about 2-3 weeks, I'm now in the restricting phase. I overdosed on laxatives a few days ago and couldn't eat for days and I was stuck on the toilet for hours at a time. Now I'm really hungry but can't bare the thought of eating anything. I really freaking hate this but it's so much better than binging and purging several times a day.

I like the high I get from restricting and I know I shouldn't. Eating disorders are confusing!
#rant

[lbdrox]

Originally Posted by crystalbleach

After binging heavily for about 2-3 weeks, I'm now in the restricting phase. I overdosed on laxatives a few days ago and couldn't eat for days and I was stuck on the toilet for hours at a time. Now I'm really hungry but can't bare the thought of eating anything. I really freaking hate this but it's so much better than binging and purging several times a day.

I like the high I get from restricting and I know I shouldn't. Eating disorders are confusing!
#rant

Yeah, tell me about it! Honestly, binging & purging is so exhausting. It's way easier for me to starve, but that's where the cycle starts! I have found that eating 5 small meals throughout the day works pretty well. This way I don't have to eat so many calories, and I can focus 1 meal at a time.

[whoswho]

Yeah. I seem to also be stuck on the fence between anorexia and bulimia. It's pretty annoying. And also difficult to explain to doctors (not like they take me seriously anyway). Like, really, I can't even do this whole eating disorder thing right?! That's not really the way I "should" look at it but still... kind of sad.

And sorry about the laxatives. That s-u-c-k-s big time. Hope you feel better!