I need some help :( Can someone give me advice?

I just recently had to be hospitalized because of my ED behaviors and I had such a low sodium level the Doctors told me that if I kept on doing what I was doing then my brain would swell and I would have seizures but they let me out after about a week and of course as soon as I got home the unbearable urges came back. I dont want to feel this way forever. I just want to be happy and ok again. I cant afford treatment so I'm kinda stuck. I dont know what to do. All I know is that I am really struggling right now.

Have you looked for clinics that take into account people's ability to pay (that is, a sliding scale)?

Of course, whatever led you to end up in the hospital is not the behavior you need to continue. Too bad the hospital didn't know any resources to tell you about.

I don't know how your ED manifests itself, but you do need support in being able to eat more normally. Would you be willing for some friends/family to help you to eat more normally and to listen to their advice, instaed of what your irrational emotional mind is telling you?

I suggest you go to a primary care doc and try to see what he/she can recommend to you as far as diet and treatment. It will be hard to eat normally without support.

I have had bulima since I was 17 and I am now 35. I have never been in treatment for bullima I am too scared to tell anyone about it.

I don't know how old you are, but my bulima was uncontrolable when I was younger. I have gone in an out of remission loads of time. What helps me is excersise. If I start running every day, or going to the gym to work out, my bulimia calms down.

I also started taking citalapram for depression, combined with excersise at least 3 times a week, and this have stopped my bulimia completly for the past month. I am hoping It have stopped forever, as I can't bare the thought of going back into the horrible cycle of binging and purging. I just can't stand it anyone. I can't stand the shame, the guilt and the hiding.

Perhaps its a combination of my age, my anti-depressants, and excersise that has put me into remission.....

I hope that helps in some way.... break the cycle... every time you feel the urge, keep away from food, and work out. Make sensible portions for yourself - never make too much food - just the right amount. eat very slowly. If you can make it to 3 days without throwing up, you are breaking the cycle and you can keep it up.

I put weight on, or just maintained my weight being bulimic. When I was younger I lost so much weight I nearly died. But since I have a full time job, a wife and too children I can't spend all day eating and throwing up, so it was a useless way to control weight. The best way is to eat smaller portions so your stomach gets used to smaller amounts - god knows my stomach can stretch to hold kilos of food, so I never felt full! After making smaller portions and white knuckling it - I feel fuller with less food - and that uneasy, nervous, tense feeling I got after eating is gone. Now I can just enjoy a good meal.

God I hope it lasts.... having Bulima for nearly half my life has nearly destroyed me.

Good luck to you.... I know how hard it is...

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I am bulimic too. So I know the struggles ur having with cycling when ur at home. Ive found its easier if u drink alot of water during the day tht way u feel more full but dont hv calories nd feel ovrly full nd need 2 purge.

Staying healthy is your motivation

Throat ulcers, they had to put an IV instead of eating because the lining of the throat had burned away, heart palpitations, possible kidney and other multi organ failure, you try to brush your teeth for the bad breath but the brushing causes more permanent loss of tooth enamel, eczema and infection around the lips and mouth, pressure on tiny eye vessels hurt your vision, swollen face

is not worth that 10 lbs. I didn't want to be 115lbs living like that

It's a real illness, start little, step by step. Don't let anxiety and panic induce it, reach out for help, talk to your counselor and someone close. I don't want it to happen to you. Your body needs certain nutrients to grow and heal, don't deprive your body of them. include exercise in your schedule