[InACorner]

At first i could handle alot of stuff...it was painful at times however i could handle it. Now, i am in pain all the time. It hurts so bad especially in the morning and evening. It causes me tears. I had to leave work after 5 hours! I was limping and almost crying after 3 hours!! It hurts to walk across the house, it hurts to open doors. My bones are cracking all over the freakin place, people are now starting to hear them. We went to the store today we were there for 15 minutes and i was feeling like the pain was starting to creep up. My arm is radiating pain...the left side of my body isnt to bad actually, mainly my left leg will be the one to hurt with my right one almost dehablilating. And when i walk it feels like my legs go in and out of the sockets...im so tired. It hurts to write this... i actually run out of breathe from walking across the hall !!! it hurts it hurts it hurts...i cant believe im getting worse..its been only a few days!!! Maybe its all in my head? Maybe im just nuts...and a hypochondriac?Maybe i just need to suck it up...and be really strong! grrrrrrrr....im sooooooooo frusterated!!!! I mean how can i be tired after 15 minutes or half a day!!!!!!! Im not used to this!!! I hate myself...maybe i want attention, maybe my mind/body is creating symptoms...if its subconcious thats crap and it needs to stop!! Sorry just had to rant ...tired now just gonna relax. Thanks -Inny

i'm so sorry............it really sucks to have that much pain...........xoxoxoxpat

I'm so sorry dear one! Do you have pain killers?

[InACorner]

(((((hugs to you both)))))
no...unforuntally i am living on advil, tylenol pm, and mylanta.

what is the medical problem that causes your pain?

[InACorner]

i have no idea...i dont have a doctor yet..i am waiting for insurance to pull through....i have never had a doctor except once or twice when i went to a pediatrian for physicals that schools demanded. So i never got to one, and still dont have one. I havent been to a doctor in 3 years. Rhasp. thinks its Rheumatoid Arthritis...i did do research and it sounds alot like it but i have no idea..it really could be anything...right now im debating if im just overexaggerating my problems or not...im writing a pain diary so when i do go to a doctor....probably in june ....they can take a look at it

i wish i could help you.............pat

[(JD)]

Do your best to take care of yourself and not beat yourself up over having pain. Becoming frustrated and upset will make the pain worse from many things (muscle tension etc)

Try doing some calming, even though the pain will fight you... tell yourself it does no good to be angry... do your best. (((hugs)))

[InACorner]

thank you...its ok, the fact that you listen and you give a response once in awhile means more to me then anything in the ENTIRE world. ((((fay))))) Im just so alone in this and i dont feel i can even trust myself. Sometimes im better and feel like maybe im just overeacting...maybe im not sick...maybe i am...who knows..i wont know but maybe its not that bad...thank you for all your support

-inny

[InACorner]

(((((((((sky)))))))))))))
thank you...I will try to become less angry, you are definitly right, me being frusterated and angry is helping no one...thank you for your support and time
-inny

[summerflower]

inny~

sorry that you're having to deal with such pain..i understand very well.
nearly everyday for 25yrs i've dealt with the pain you describe and then some, plus 3-4 migraines a week and so on.
dx with fibromyalgia 16yrs ago.

check out the symptoms of Fibromyalgia to see if those match yours ....go to fibrohugs.com

there is a simple "trigger point" test your doctor can do for a dx. OR your dr. might refer you to a rhuemetologist, they actually "treat" and dx fibro.

hope that you are feeling better soon.
summer

[InACorner]

Thank you...I will definitly take that into consideration
((((summer)))))