So I've been noticing that when I get triggered by past abuse, I get adrenaline rushes and increased energy but them I crash and end up in horrible body wide pain and usually a horrible migraine to add insult to injury. The body and mind are so connected and run on auto pilot no matter how I try to control it. I was seriously triggered today and became so sick once the adrenaline rush went away. Vomiting and shaking and throbbing and migrainy. My body attacks me and I just want it to stop.

Thanks for letting me rant.

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

The body and mind are so connected and run on auto pilot.

So true. Sorry you are suffering. Hopefully, your body will only attack for so long... It feels terrible when your body gets "out of control". Thinking of you this morning...

Thanks Mysterious. I just wish I had more control over all this. It's torture and I have only my body to blame so I just hate everything about myself right now. I want to reconnect with the cosmos. Me and some others like me with hopefully get our own star and we can make it bright and beautiful and exactly what a star should be. I fail at being human but my next life will be better.

It seems like it will never end while you are in the midst of it but it eventually does. We are both going to do better in our next life--I hope we have learned a few lessons!