[clwcommander45]

Hi, Lorne here
I am figuring out this online thing and typing. I D
dont know if its ok to just ramble on and vent but Im going to because Ive beem retired out now for 20yrs this coming Oct from our wonderful govt. With severe PTSD and have .ever been able to talk about it and its better no oneknows. People think youre 5150. I thi.k its slowly changing. Nobody will hire you. I have master skills. If it rollz floats or flies i can fix tt or drive it or fly it.I am lic. To buid any building and and can. From
Surveying the land to handing you the keys

But get hired when they see my history.
It doesnt happen.Ive managed barely.
You lose your wife your family your friends your job and your respect.thats just year one.
Dont dare breakdown or cry in front of others. Bathrooms become a good escape.
The worst iz the look of horror on the faces of people when you walk In
to a room. Thats the worst. Yes I did horrible things but not to friends or family or non threats. Thanks for me venting

Hello clwcommander45: Yes, it's perfectly okay to vent & ramble here on PC. We all do it from time-to-time. The only thing I would say is don't let your posts get too long. (This one isn't.) The really long posts members sometimes put up tend to get fewer replies. It sounds as though you've been through difficult times. I have not been employed for a good 15 years or so. I've now aged into retirement. It has been difficult, but I have been fortunate to have not lost my wife or our home. Hopefully things will begin to look up for you.

[Parley]

Welcome to psych central clw.

What branch of service were you in?

[schatten]

I can't fathom the things you've been put through or the hells you've faced but don't ever thing that you aren't seven kinds of strong to have lived through them.

The bathroom thing, that hit me bad. I've done that for so, so long and oh lord when people walk in its never good.

[clwcommander45]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Hello clwcommander45: Yes, it's perfectly okay to vent & ramble here on PC. We all do it from time-to-time. The only thing I would say is don't let your posts get too long. (This one isn't.) The really long posts members sometimes put up tend to get fewer replies. It sounds as though you've been through difficult times. I have not been employed for a good 15 years or so. I've now aged into retirement. It has been difficult, but I have been fortunate to have not lost my wife or our home. Hopefully things will begin to look up for you.

Thank you, every little reply I get seems to help boost my sense of hope.

[clwcommander45]

Originally Posted by Parley

Welcome to psych central clw.

What branch of service were you in?

I don't discuss that, sorrry

[clwcommander45]

Originally Posted by schatten

I can't fathom the things you've been put through or the hells you've faced but don't ever thing that you aren't seven kinds of strong to have lived through them.

The bathroom thing, that hit me bad. I've done that for so, so long and oh lord when people walk in its never good.

Thank you for listening and replying', it really helps.

[Parley]

Originally Posted by clwcommander45

I don't discuss that, sorrry

no biggie~ I was just being nosey. making small talk. I almost called you commander.

Best of luck to you.