We are the walking dead

I self-diagnosed myself with C-PTSD although my T said only PTSD. I disagree with her diagnosis. The reason I have the former is I have significant flashbacks of multiple abuses by multiple people. Mostly my family too! They don't care and I have no 'voice' in the family. Instead I'm mostly ignored and seen as the problem. I experienced C-PTSD nearly every day with debilitating flashbacks that are incredibly intense. I'm amazed I can hold down a full-time job! I experienced sexual and psychological abuse as a child and most of it is at age 12, as I was starting to develop! The flashbacks only started almost four years ago and a flood of memories since then have come to the surface. It is quite deplorable what my family members did to me especially at age 12. I hope my internal world will one day settle!

((Purple Heart)), you can make gains on it, you need to slowly develope stronger boundaries, stay away from the "toxic" family members that trigger you and show you disrespect. If you can still work, that is good, that is what you deserve to be able to do, function and take care of yourself.

Yes my psychiatrist explained this to me. It is called 'Mental Death'...akin to a conscious jolt or severing of the psyche. There is a lot written about this online.

To all the broken CPTSD sufferers...there may not be a way back, but there is a way forward, the trick is to never give up seaching for the key.