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I'm new to this forum stuff but I need help with my current situation.

I was feeling depressed so I told my mum and she took me to her therapist and the women there diagnosed me with PTSD.

I'm bored of life I don't want to live in this kind of world anymore. I have serious motivational problems I always have suicidal thoughts but don't take action. I finished my GCSEs and now I'm in my second month of college and if I don't start thinking differently I'm going to get kicked out and start something else I don't want. I don't want to work or go school anymore, I don't study and failed almost all my mini tests and homework so far. Its not because I'm stupid just because I don't give a .... anymore. I hate feeling like this.

I've tried to talk to my only parent and she just starts crying when I tell her. She experienced a lot more than me and I was there for some of it. I don't think or know if the things that happened to me and my mum is effecting this but I feel hopless.

My mum already banned me from playing games or going on the internet until I done some school work for the day but I felt more depressed so I just ignored her and she understood. Im not someone that gets inspired easily by other people's achievments or someone that can maintain motivation or even be able to concerntrate on something for a long time, so even if I get really good advice the motivation and the will to live will just disappear moments later.

I know time will help a lot but I need to change now, I regret not doing any work in my free time and I've tried distracting myself with video games and talking to friends but its to study my body refuses. This is causing me to experience depression, I just won't to live anymore I wish I died or at least go into a forever lasting coma or something. I don't mean to offend anyone that's experienced loss and I know it never help the people around me. Even as I am typing this now on the bus, I'm skipping school for the day. I don't feel motivated to anything.

So I need help and I think this will help more than anything around me right now.

Thank you for reading this.

Did the T tell you the cause of your PTSD? Your Mom seems to have it too from what you've described. I am sorry that she isn't there for you emotionally. Having had to grow up on my own also, I know how difficult and stressful that is. You do not mention having any friends and that also concerns me. Since you were diagnosed with PTSD, I take it that you are continuing to see the therapist for treatment? If not, why? Ideally, I'd see someone other than my Mom's T because it's better to keep matters separate.

Just because the most important people in your life - your parents - cannot be there for you does not mean that you and your life are not important. You are important and so is your life. That's why I'm answering.

Having had neglectful parents myself, you sound a lot like me when I was starting college. It did just not seem important and I'd try but could not finish things. Looking back, I'd say my biggest error was going to college to please others rather than really exploring my interests. I had picked a major that I was not suited for; it took a while to find a school that was a better fit. Relax, you are young so all is not lost. But, don't make the biggest error of all - wasting time. It's always better to do something than nothing. Doing things and trying new things at this time of your life is important because you will learn what you're good and not so good at. You will learn what you enjoy and what you don't enjoy. Since you are vague on a career, I'm going to suggest that you take a part-time job. You will meet people and you will learn. Find a job where people your age work so that you can make friends and socialize with them. In fact, put the focus on you: finding something that you like or are good at, making friends and building a social life. Since you are career iffy, try applyng for a social service job - there's often less competition and good benefits. Finally, if you find a job that you like and - MOST IMPORTANTLY - are working with people who you like - STAY THERE. There is nothing better than working with people who you like and who like you.

I hope this helps. All the best to you.

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Originally Posted by unguy

Did the T tell you the cause of your PTSD? Your Mom seems to have it too from what you've described. I am sorry that she isn't there for you emotionally. Having had to grow up on my own also, I know how difficult and stressful that is. You do not mention having any friends and that also concerns me. Since you were diagnosed with PTSD, I take it that you are continuing to see the therapist for treatment? If not, why? Ideally, I'd see someone other than my Mom's T because it's better to keep matters separate.

Just because the most important people in your life - your parents - cannot be there for you does not mean that you and your life are not important. You are important and so is your life. That's why I'm answering.

Having had neglectful parents myself, you sound a lot like me when I was starting college. It did just not seem important and I'd try but could not finish things. Looking back, I'd say my biggest error was going to college to please others rather than really exploring my interests. I had picked a major that I was not suited for; it took a while to find a school that was a better fit. Relax, you are young so all is not lost. But, don't make the biggest error of all - wasting time. It's always better to do something than nothing. Doing things and trying new things at this time of your life is important because you will learn what you're good and not so good at. You will learn what you enjoy and what you don't enjoy. Since you are vague on a career, I'm going to suggest that you take a part-time job. You will meet people and you will learn. Find a job where people your age work so that you can make friends and socialize with them. In fact, put the focus on you: finding something that you like or are good at, making friends and building a social life. Since you are career iffy, try applyng for a social service job - there's often less competition and good benefits. Finally, if you find a job that you like and - MOST IMPORTANTLY - are working with people who you like - STAY THERE. There is nothing better than working with people who you like and who like you.

I hope this helps. All the best to you.

Thanks

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