[PrairieCat]

I'm having EMDR treatment now. I don't understand it but I think something is working. I am changing and being more self-caring. I just feel disheartened by it all, by what I went through and by it being so late in my life. I am exhausted and I stay isolated also. The only person I talk to very much is next door neighbor.

I am just worn out. I see my EMDR therapist on Saturday mornings and then on Monday mornings I see my regular therapist. They know each other and they are "kinda" working together to help me, I guess. I do not want to talk to the regular therapist about the EMDR! She asks and I have no idea what to tell her but I did tell her that - and then I was able to tell her a bit more about the EMDR. She wants to learn EMDR. Whoop-dee-doo for her. I have decided to give her a real big dose of my stuttering regarding whatever it is that happened to me. We'll see how she likes that. It is awful, really awful. I never stuttered in my life before I got to this point!

I would prefer to be just done with all of this. I am so damned tired. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?

[Parva]

Ummm...everyday? Not the stuttering part, but feeling so completely tired and worn out by all of it. It's hard to not give up. It feels like a full-time job to me, and the farther into I go, the more consuming it can become.

I've only done a kind of resource allocation EMDR, which was interesting and did help, probably more than I realized. It would be very hard to talk about this with a T who didn't understand it. Right now, I have that same deal with my new T and neurofeedback.