[Trace14]

Pictures of my cat that died, the Tortie on the right, bottom picture and my baby with an abscess now. It's so hard to see them hurt , or die, it's very triggering and thought provoking.

[ThisWayOut]

They're gorgeous.
I hope the white one is feeling better soon. What happened to give her an access, tooth troubles?
It definitely can be hard to see our babies hurting, especially if it brings up all the other past hurts...

[Open Eyes]

I have a shitzu that developed an abcess and it's between his ear and his jaw and it's an area that has been troubling him off an on for a while now. I was given antibiotics for it and he has had ongoing ear infections that I can't get rid of but have done my best to keep cleaning and treating. The vet drained the abcess but it keeps filling up and I have to put hot cloths on it so the place the vet opened opens up again where the fluid oozes out.

The vet talked about me having my shitzu go through having anethesia to have his teeth done and because he has a heart murmer and is now nearing 15 years old, I am afraid that having that done may end up killing him, as I did have a friend that experienced that. Also, the vet told me it would cost me between $800 and $1,200 and I don't have that kind of money. That triggers me because when so many of my ponies/horses suffered so many injuries from my neighbor's dog, I did not have enough money or credit to have them all treated the way I had wanted/needed/they should have been examined.

One of my big challenges is how I suffered losing ones I really loved, and while I do love what I have left what I struggle with is the emotional suffering I will experience when the time comes where I will lose another or have to euthanize which is something I hate having to do. Now it's so much harder because of the loss I suffered and how I somehow missed the signs where if I had only known I could have prevented, it's just so hard to figure out how to find a way in my mind to let go of that.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by ThisWayOut

They're gorgeous.
I hope the white one is feeling better soon. What happened to give her an access, tooth troubles?
It definitely can be hard to see our babies hurting, especially if it brings up all the other past hurts...

It is hard to see them suffer and die. Especially when you feel like they are the only ones that truly care and depend on you to take care of their every need. The white one is doing much better. I have to take her back to the vet next week so maybe they can tell what caused the abscess. I expect it's teeth. The vet said it may be a tumor inside her mouth also. Time will tell.
They are very sweet , thank you for the compliment on my fur babies.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

I have a shitzu that developed an abcess and it's between his ear and his jaw and it's an area that has been troubling him off an on for a while now. I was given antibiotics for it and he has had ongoing ear infections that I can't get rid of but have done my best to keep cleaning and treating. The vet drained the abcess but it keeps filling up and I have to put hot cloths on it so the place the vet opened opens up again where the fluid oozes out.

The vet talked about me having my shitzu go through having anethesia to have his teeth done and because he has a heart murmer and is now nearing 15 years old, I am afraid that having that done may end up killing him, as I did have a friend that experienced that. Also, the vet told me it would cost me between $800 and $1,200 and I don't have that kind of money. That triggers me because when so many of my ponies/horses suffered so many injuries from my neighbor's dog, I did not have enough money or credit to have them all treated the way I had wanted/needed/they should have been examined.

One of my big challenges is how I suffered losing ones I really loved, and while I do love what I have left what I struggle with is the emotional suffering I will experience when the time comes where I will lose another or have to euthanize which is something I hate having to do. Now it's so much harder because of the loss I suffered and how I somehow missed the signs where if I had only known I could have prevented, it's just so hard to figure out how to find a way in my mind to let go of that.

It's like the rest of our traumas I expect. There's no way that seeing what you saw was not a major trauma. When times are good you kind of sleep with one eye open , just waiting for that next event to happen. How do you change that? The one that I watched die was my heart and soul. I will be upset when something happens to the others but that last one was a biggie. Since I don't leave the house much it's constant reminders of her. She loved Christmas and getting into everything. I decorate less and less, I guess at some point I will just stop with Christmas. I don't even remember Halloween or Thanksgiving, like I was somewhere else and it never happened. *sigh*