[Trace14]

When did you feel comfortable enough to tell your T everything truthfully. I'm honest about what I tell her, otherwise I don't tell her. I don't know if I'm ready to be that open to her. And if I can get to feel better by just disclosing some of the small stuff maybe I'll never have to cross that bridge.

When did you know you were safe and trust your T? Did it take long?

[childofchaos831]

For me, it started with how I began seeing her. The T I had prior was retiring. Current T is the office supervisor. Previous T called her in to see if they needed to call police (county sheriff deputies with special training for mental health) for my safety from myself. Current T said basically not enough to justify commitment so they didn't call. When previous T retired, I was moved to current T since we had already met, and I kind of already knew her.

Also, last session, had major panic/dissociation attack. She spend half an hour past my appt pulling me back in, slowly. Trying to find out what I was comfortable with and not being pushy or threatening police. When I back for the most part, she walked me downstairs so I could smoke a cigarette. Could have left from there, but need to reschedule coming week's appt cuz of conflict, so we both went back upstairs. I think the time she spent that say was kind of confirmation for me, that I can tell her anything, but I'm still scared to really open up. The whole "everyone who knows the real me leaves" thought process.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

For me, it started with how I began seeing her. The T I had prior was retiring. Current T is the office supervisor. Previous T called her in to see if they needed to call police (county sheriff deputies with special training for mental health) for my safety from myself. Current T said basically not enough to justify commitment so they didn't call. When previous T retired, I was moved to current T since we had already met, and I kind of already knew her.

Also, last session, had major panic/dissociation attack. She spend half an hour past my appt pulling me back in, slowly. Trying to find out what I was comfortable with and not being pushy or threatening police. When I back for the most part, she walked me downstairs so I could smoke a cigarette. Could have left from there, but need to reschedule coming week's appt cuz of conflict, so we both went back upstairs. I think the time she spent that say was kind of confirmation for me, that I can tell her anything, but I'm still scared to really open up. The whole "everyone who knows the real me leaves" thought process.

Wow it does sound like you have a good one now. I understand the abandonment issues, I usually keep most people at arms distance. It's hard to trust people. That's why I would like to move away, deep into the woods and not have much human contact.
But she sounds very caring better hold on to her because there's not many like her out there.

[reb569]

As I've mentioned on other posts, I started seeing my therapist during a crisis situation concerning my daughter. Because of that, I truly do trust her, and I do think that at some point in time that she will probably become the only person to know my full story. She knows how it impacts me to talk about it, so she hasn't pushed me to reveal any more at this time, and we've been working on grounding and mindfulness techniques.

So I would say within the first couple sessions I had with her I realized that she could be trusted. And she has never done anything to make me question that trust.

[kaleidoscopeheart]

I have been seeing mine for 5 months and I want to be open and share everything with him but so far I can't seem to do it. I think I am afraid that, if I lay it all out there he is going to realize how big of a mess I really am and give up on me. I probably need to tell him this but haven't found the courage yet.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by kaleidoscopeheart

I have been seeing mine for 5 months and I want to be open and share everything with him but so far I can't seem to do it. I think I am afraid that, if I lay it all out there he is going to realize how big of a mess I really am and give up on me. I probably need to tell him this but haven't found the courage yet.

I completely understand. You will know when the time is right. Trust your instincts.

[reb569]

Originally Posted by kaleidoscopeheart

I have been seeing mine for 5 months and I want to be open and share everything with him but so far I can't seem to do it. I think I am afraid that, if I lay it all out there he is going to realize how big of a mess I really am and give up on me. I probably need to tell him this but haven't found the courage yet.

I started to respond to this yesterday, but was having a hard time putting thoughts into words at the time. Anyway -- I just wanted to point out that your therapist may already have an idea that there is more, just from your current interactions. Maybe try one little bit at a time, or just tell him, there is much more that you want to talk about, but you aren't ready yet. Then, as you are able to start talking about some of it he can guide you. Good therapists know when to push a little, but most importantly know when to back off. You will know when you are ready. Best of luck.

[Unrigged64072835]

I trusted my T pretty much from the beginning, so I was able to tell him a lot. He has been very helpful with validating and researching my feelings towards things.