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Tonight's thoughts are bad. I need some help.

How can I help you... Do you want to talk here or through PM... We can do a Private Chat if you want too.

I struggle with thoughts too and they are not pretty. Please be safe...

Amanda

I hear you and I am thinking of you. Please be safe and post here, if you feel like it. I'm listening.

What's going on, my friend? ❤

Do you need to go to the hospital? Please do so if you need to go. We want you to be okay. Many here enjoy your company and hate to see you hurting so much. Please be safe, you know I care tremendously.

Went for a walk. It didn't help.

Do you think you need to go to the hospital?

I'm not going back there, Trace. I don't know what I need

Do you use/have essential oils - or a way of getting 100% therapeutic grade essential oils?

I pray you have a safe place to go to, to sort your thoughts and feelings out.

I wish we could help, or there was a magic wand we could wave and make all our friends here feel better. Healing is hard and a struggle, sometimes it looks bleak and you just don't know if you have the energy to fight another day. But we do, but maybe not fight so hard this day, take a little rest, but then gradually start the fight again with feeling better. Healing is not linear, It's a lot of ups and downs, and sometimes those valleys and peaks can be extreme, but we will come out of it and look for other healthy solutions. Can you call a crisis line and talk to someone?

I'm not sure I have the words to speak.

Just try. We will be here when you get back and want to know how it went if you want to share.

I can't bring myself to call. I don't know why.

I'm still alive. That's the only news I can offer.

Please stay safe... I'm still on if you want to talk...

I'm glad you are still here I would greatly miss you if you would take that step.
What's keeping you from making the call? Going to the emergency dept.?

If I call, I know they'll track me and put out a welfare check. I can't allow that. I can't be taken or go to the ER because life doesn't stop because I'm having a hard time. If I'm going to keep living, then I need to take care of life. If I'm not going to keep living, then what's the point of getting help if I don't want it?

It's messed up and I know that, but I can't stop thinking this way.

Call a hotline anonymously

You are important! You matter! "Take care of life". Is there another life involved in this?

Valid points, if you feel so bad what would it matter to get a little help? How's handling it yourself worked out for you? Not trying to be mean but seriously what makes you think things are going to turn around if you don't have the professional guidance and medication to help you around that corner? The good thing about that is once you get around that corner you can fully take the wheel and move forward. Doesn't that sound like something to aim for?

They still track the cell.

I don't want there to be.

That's the worst part, I do have help. I see my T once a week, I see my pdoc once a month and I take medication.

None of it makes these feelings, thoughts and ultimately desires go away. They don't stop. They never end. Nothing helps. The last hospital trip cost me a fortune and did nothing but make me worse. None of it works.

Can you call your T tomorrow and tell her how bad you are feeling? and that what is going on now is not working? Can you do that for me tomorrow? Sometimes you have to try several medications to get the right combo to get you back in balance, try to be patient and keep your provider informed on unwanted side affects.

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