[anxiety247]

Today I wanted to catch up on some things I wasn't able to due to the holiday week. One of my medical providers lost my records not once but twice and sent me someone else. All Hipaa violations. I need these records to move forward with dental work. I called the insurance company today without these records (have now) nothing is covered. I got frustrated and used a poor choice of words and hung up. I said something like what do you cover and very sarcastically asked is funerals covered and hung up. It was just pure frustration of what I have been dealing with lack of insurance, lack of coverage etc. A nurse calls me back and she asked if I was suicidal. I said no and apologized I was very frustrated by everything. We hang up and the doorbell rings. It the police and let me just say due to my past I still have extreme extreme anxiety around them. They we sent to do a safety check again I assure them I was ok. I understand they were doing there job but that nurse I talked to should have not sent them out. What scares me now is where I live we have these really messed up laws when it comes to domestic abuse/mental health those are considered nuisance calls and landlords can evict tenants. I dont want to be thrown out of where I live. Part of me just wants to say F it and say take your m-caid and stick it up your ***. Thats just the anger and hurt talking because with my medicare alone I cant make it on..I just got the medicaid this summer (16 yrs of never being eligible) and its been a nightmare thus far...

[Skeezyks]

Dealing with bureaucracies can be SO ANNOYING! Hope things begin to look up for you soon.

[Fuzzybear]

[anxiety247]

Day was a little better. Then got a dang call from M-caid people wanting to do some home visit with a peer person. I was good with it til the person got really pushy. Right now I don't really trust people esp mental health stuff after what happened the other day.

Anyways thx for letting me vent. Just wish I chose my words differently that day and like I said it was fueled with anger than anything else. I have had no teeth for 10 yrs Medicare wouldn't pay for dentures and with the medicaid they are giving me a hard time bc i need more comprehensive work to get a denture to even work. 10 yrs of bone loss makes it hard to get a denture to fit and with an incorrect bite jaw shifted as a result of no teeth they need to break my jaw, then do bone grafts from my hip to build up lost bone and then implants. Medicaid says its cosmetic wtf ever. Tried to get my last dentist who said I needed all that send me my records to give to medicaid - they sent me someone else medical records and who knows where mine went and 2nd request of my records were lost as well. I filed complaints for hipaa violations. I am just really exhausted fighting all this and why I said "do you pay for funerals" I feel like I will wind up dying before I get the help - my mom did - short story filed for ssdi 6 yrs denied - she died and the day of her funeral she got the SS award letter...that is where my sarcasm was coming from...she was 46 when she died..i am 46 and fighting the same broken *** system she did...