[RecoveringMe1]

I'm in recovery mode for C-PTSD, and am gaining a lot of ground in creating a meaningful life and nurturing new, quality friendships. My marriage is supportive and loving, and our kids are thriving. But the persistent problem I am mystified about is this strong need for attachment, affection and love beyond what I have (which is plenty). How can I work to overcome this drive to fulfill a gap in ages 0-10 that makes no sense today? A trusted friend is moving far away in a few months, and it has upset me more than I expected...I wasn't even aware how much I valued this stable and kind work relationship. So, I think I attached without even knowing it. Is that wrong? Normal? Will there ever be a way to fill this void?

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by RecoveringMe1

I'm in recovery mode for C-PTSD, and am gaining a lot of ground in creating a meaningful life and nurturing new, quality friendships. My marriage is supportive and loving, and our kids are thriving. But the persistent problem I am mystified about is this strong need for attachment, affection and love beyond what I have (which is plenty). How can I work to overcome this drive to fulfill a gap in ages 0-10 that makes no sense today? A trusted friend is moving far away in a few months, and it has upset me more than I expected...I wasn't even aware how much I valued this stable and kind work relationship. So, I think I attached without even knowing it. Is that wrong? Normal? Will there ever be a way to fill this void?

I think the attachment issues is a strong component of the CPTSD and possibly CEN. Have you talked to a therapist about it? Seems it would be worth your time to have this checked out. You are doing so well and this may be an easier fix than you might think. If you have the proper tools.