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#1
Aug 27, 2018, 06:52 PM
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I don't want this memory integration. Please, I don't want it. I never did. "I don't wanna wake up scared. I been runnin' from this endless nightmare."
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#2
Aug 28, 2018, 09:39 PM
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May I ask what memory integration is? Is this related to flashbacks?
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#3
Aug 28, 2018, 11:11 PM
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During session, I was focused on a memory I hardly had any of, but apparently other people in my head do remember. Those others' memories are slowly becoming my own. I haven't stopped being on guard for three days and my sleep is so light I might as well stay awake. I keep having somatic pains and emotional flashbacks constantly. I think I had a full flashback at some point but I was also dissociating at the same time, so I don't know.
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Aug 29, 2018, 10:45 AM
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((So leigheas)),
Can I suggest something for you to focus on most? First, the important thing is what you do remember of whatever you are sharing with your therapist. It's important also to keep in mind that if there are "others" that are in this flashback that "intrude" on what you remember, sometimes that can be because "others" especially if they are toxic, will attempt to change the truth and change whatever happened in their own favor. The other thing to keep in mind is whatever your age happens to be in whatever you are sharing. The important thing about this is that if you were younger or even a child, you did not have the ability to understand more than you did at the time and in that you were only capable of reacting in whatever way you did react at the time and it's important to remember that so you don't feed into feeling shame or guilt for whatever you did not do at the time you experienced whatever you are remembering in the flashback. |
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#5
Aug 29, 2018, 04:54 PM
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I just feel so ****ing evil. I deserve nothing but pain. You put down a sick dog, right? Or at least lock 'em up so they can't hurt anyone? What makes me any different?
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#6
Sep 02, 2018, 03:25 PM
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These thoughts are not you. They are NOT true. They are lies that with time and steady work you can recover from largely. Please know that I care. 
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| Fuzzybear, MtnTime2896, Purple,Violet,Blue
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#7
Sep 05, 2018, 05:15 PM
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