i know i can be so insecure, this time of year, specially this year i IM (i think thats what it's called) some people, (which I've never ever done until about a month ago.), it seems any communication i give and talking to others... i just feel i say the wrong thing, give to much info. or make a fool of myself entirely. i know some of these things are unfounded, maybe some aren't. It's just been since august, i can't shake the feeling today. another thing, i talking on the phone with a friend about some stuff from my past. usually, I'm very aware of this, but i have a loud Italian voice, and my daughter, came out of her room. i was so scared, she heard me. i don't think she did, by her reaction to my questions. just think sometimes recently... i should hide from the world. sorry so needy. just been a lots theses two months. just wish i could shake the feeling today. sorry i feel so needy today.

[sundog]

I am insecure too and I definitely know what you mean about second-guessing yourself when it comes to communicating with others. One thing I've noticed/learned though is that most people are too wrapped up in themselves to spend too much time thinking about something I've said!! Or perhaps they are even second-guessing themselves about things they have said. Either way, most of the time I honestly don't believe that other folks think we've made a fool of ourselves or dwell on things we've said, even if we think we've revealed too much/said the wrong thing or whatever. I know being insecure like this can be a real PITA though. I hope you're able to shake the feeling soon!

[madisgram]

it's ok, nikki. we're here to help if we can. try some brisk walking. it'll bounce off the tension.someimes we just get in a rough spot, but it will pass. not trying to minimize your feelings, tho. thinking about happy moments in your life might help too.

[geez]

Nikki at my apt today with T we talked about this very thing as I went through a weekend where it seemed like a basic conversation with a stranger and my brain would freeze. - I would stumble over my words etc...

I felt/feel very self conscious including when I'm in my apt with T. I also hate feeling needy and like I need to be constantly reassured that I'm ok. My T says that everyone feels a little self conscious at times and what people see about us is different than what we perceive. People don't pay attention to those moments like we think they do.

I hope you are feeling better soon.