[Belle1979]

Up and down or just Blah...meh...?

I guess I could say its a stable place to be but I have reason to be excited/happy and I am just not.

I am going on my first overseas trip... I should be excited.. I should be happy..

I am doing something totally out of my comfort zone.. trying to find who I am/what I want in life and still no emotions related to the trip.. still all just ex BF crap going through my head..

Sorry, Bel.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( Belle )))))))))))))

[FeelingHopeful]

Giving you a hug belle

[Belle1979]

thank you both x

[lynn P.]

((Belle)) - sorry you're feeling blah.

[Muser]

You've been through a lot. Excitement of a new love led to disappointment and lots of negative emotions. Could you be just emotionally drained tight now?

Sending hugs your way, my friend.

[Belle1979]

I think you are right Muser.
First relationship after Mark.. dwelling on what went wrong there... not knowing what to do or what I want. Trying new things and opening up almost destroyed me when it ended.... I dont want to put a "cap" on what i am allowing myself to feel or will feel... it just seems that everything is wrong.. emotional wrong that is... how can one emotion end and then another not even begin?

((((((((belle)))))))))

i'm sorry you're experiencing the blahs. i think it's great you are going to travel overseas though. where are you going to go? i'm sure the blahs will lift as you work through the disappointment of the ex bf stuff. don't give up girl!

[Belle1979]

Thanks Bloom

I am taking a short trip to Bali - little tropical island about a 3 and half hour flight from where I live. I have never been overseas before... planned on doing it this year and time was getting away from me (Louis pushed me to get my passport - so thought, well i have it now and so am going to do it even if it's not with who I planned it to be with)
I am going with a male friend who I have only know a short time but he seems decent and has travelled before - not to Bali - seemed more sensible than doing it alone.

I hope the blah mood lifts too.. I still have a lot of under lying anger that is slowly surfacing.. so Blah may turn into Grrr

[Muser]

Originally Posted by Belle1979

I think you are right Muser.
First relationship after Mark.. dwelling on what went wrong there... not knowing what to do or what I want. Trying new things and opening up almost destroyed me when it ended.... I dont want to put a "cap" on what i am allowing myself to feel or will feel... it just seems that everything is wrong.. emotional wrong that is... how can one emotion end and then another not even begin?

I don't know the ins & outs of the human mind, but seems like we get a little "numb" after a tough time. Even bad feelings can be intense. This meh feeling might not be such a bad thing....a transition from tense to "OK....moving on."

For me...after being upset for so long it took a while for me to find that "joy" again and it doesn't take much for me to retreat back into my shell. It's OK to be a little pensive. You're in the midst of creating a new joyful memory. Bali will be exciting.

Remember to find joy in the little things around you as well

xxxxx