[bridgie]

I am feeling highly inadequate and unsure today. I keep thinking that maybe I am not as capable or as qualified to do things as I thought. I don't know. I want to feel good about what I am doing and have done. But if it doesn't bear any fruits what does that say. If I keep spinning in circles if I am going no where. I would like to make something of myself be someone. I don't know right now if that is going to happen. I suppose I could have a back up plan to this feeling of imminent failure. But what would I do and would it be better than just sitting and toiling away with what I already do. I don't think I can do what I already do forever. There needs to be something more. I keep seeing others becomeing more. I don't know how to handle this feeling. Its an old feeling I've pushed away. I am not supposed to feel like this anymore. I deserve a chance just as much as the next person. I don't want to feel worthless anymore. I don't want to feel as if I am undeserving. I realize I have ambivilance over it all. Who doesn't. For some reason right now I feel as if I may already be a failure. Always being surpassed overlooked outshadowed. Treated as if I don't know anything or how to do anything. I really don't enjoy this

[Elana05]

Originally Posted by bridgie

I am feeling highly inadequate and unsure today. I keep thinking that maybe I am not as capable or as qualified to do things as I thought. I don't know. I want to feel good about what I am doing and have done. But if it doesn't bear any fruits what does that say. If I keep spinning in circles if I am going no where. I would like to make something of myself be someone. I don't know right now if that is going to happen. I suppose I could have a back up plan to this feeling of imminent failure. But what would I do and would it be better than just sitting and toiling away with what I already do. I don't think I can do what I already do forever. There needs to be something more. I keep seeing others becomeing more. I don't know how to handle this feeling. Its an old feeling I've pushed away. I am not supposed to feel like this anymore. I deserve a chance just as much as the next person. I don't want to feel worthless anymore. I don't want to feel as if I am undeserving. I realize I have ambivilance over it all. Who doesn't. For some reason right now I feel as if I may already be a failure. Always being surpassed overlooked outshadowed. Treated as if I don't know anything or how to do anything. I really don't enjoy this

Hi Bridgie,

As I read your post I feel as though I could have written something so similar... I can really relate. I think that depression can really make us feel so inadequate and unsure of ourselves. Just tonight actually I found myself making comparisons to someone I went to college with. But it's not fair... first I don't really know what's going on in his life, second, maybe he didn't have the struggles I did. Or maybe he has/had different ones. It's just not accurate to compare ourselves to other people.
E

Hello, bridgie. Do you know what you want to do or be? Do you know why you think you might fail?

Maybe you need to be doing some cognitive distortion work?

http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/15-...e-distortions/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/fix...e-distortions/

[bridgie]

I have been employed at a bookstore for 5 years now. An opening came and I applied. I know others have too. No one has heard anything. The longer we go without any indication makes me feel more like I am not going to get is. When I went in for the interview I felt strong capable and sure I would get it. Now I am thinking that if I don't then what am I doing here. I can't stay low level forever. I have so much capability to do the job. But my mind is faltering and makeing me doubt myself. Almost to the point of just saying screw it and find another job start over but make sure they know right off I want to be advancing. When I went thru the interview and before I was getting the green light and support from others in the store. I think the waiting is making me feel they have chosen someone else. And if I don't get it then what does that say about me especially when other managment thinks I would be great. I am faltering. I want to cry. I had been getting stronger about who I was and where I am going but I am not so sure now.

Waiting to find out can be very hard.

[lynn P.]

((bridgie)) - I realize it's very hard waiting as Byz said but try not to let self doubt and insecurity creep in. Even if you don't get the job you're still as worthwhile as before. It most likely isn't because of your lack of skills. Keeping my fingers crossed and sending super positive vibes.

[sorrel]

Self doubt can be a real toughie, I know.