[thine_self_untrue]

I never know how much stock to put into emotions. Particularly since they have become kind of rare for me. Most often, I don't really feel anything. I feel a bit like an empty tin can. Hallow. Empty. Like if you dropped a penny down my throat and put your ear to my belly you would hear it PING when it hit the bottom.
So when I do feel, it's like "Whoa. What's this?" Good feelings especially. I feel best when I feel nothing and my mind is in a good place. Bad days are when I feel vaguely sad, upset and worried and my brain isn't working or working overtime.
Because of this, I don't know if my emotions are cues to anything, senseless cruelty on the part of my mind, or seriously stilted by depression.
I'm not seeing any rhyme or reason to any of it. Is this just another "Welcome to Depression!" thing or should I be trying to figure out my emotions on a deeper level?

Transference is the set of ways of perceiving and responding to the world which is developed in childhood and which is usually entirely appropriate to the childhood environment (indeed, often life-saving) but which is inappropriately transferred into the adult environment. http://ecourse.amberton.edu/grad/RGS6036E1/Foura.htm

Hello, Thine. My speculation is you are confronting and reassessing choices you previously made. Good luck.

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[bpd2]

What I would try is starting to grow your emotions with ones you can trust--as in, start with events, activities, experiences that are pleasing to you and that you can always count on--and that are healthy. Maybe branch out from there in a sort of self-sensitivity training?

[Yesterdays]

Sometimes I think it's a coping mechanism in order not to feel anymore. You are depressed or sad for so long that eventually you automatically 'stop feeling' in order to protect yourself from emotions. But unfortunately you pay a sacrifice because you are no longer able to feel happiness normally either. I think the key is starting to feel comfortable with your emotions again. When you're happy, try to look at it as a normal thing instead of a strange or rare thing. Same thing with when you are sad, or whatever other emotion you might be feeling. Embrace your emotions instead of running away from them and retreating to your emotionless world. You have to admit to yourself that emotions can be good things, not just bad.

[madisgram]

i really like what yesterdays said.
when i am very depressed sometimes i feel numb like my brain shut down. perhaps you experience these same voids cause you are not comfortable feeling anything or it's overwhelming. however some emotions can enlighten your state of mind and you can experience a warm happy glow. other feelings/emotions may be a little scary but allow them in gently and explore them. you may find those feelings are not so scary afterall.
it's takes practice but you can do it.