Rant

I hate voices. Im a christian so i know i shouldnt hate, but i hate them. I hate them so much i suprise myself. Its like i have black venom in my heart. Alot of times i have it on my tongue too. I also (i know i should say this) hate the people who the voices come out of. And i hate how im supposed to strive against sin while i have a freaking impairement. Its pretty much a impairment. I hear voices all the time, and they are usually negative. And I get this thing where i think i know its gods will for me to do some crazy thing, and then when i do it i just find out im just crazy. I shouldnt have this on my heart, but i hate being preached at to strive and all that stuff, when im ill. I hate god alot too. Jerk. Not really, but he sure seems to be. Thanks for listening

I could go on for a long time, it would be a long rant, but i wont. Darn. Id get in trouble with my church. And God.

sooo understand. I've backed away from the ppl and places that the negative voices seemed to be overwhelming around. right wrong or indifferant it is what I had to do. I feel more secluded but I have also learned much in the process. keep the faith but not what everyone else tells you but what is in your heart.

Thanks Alot, it helps.

Life is going to be so good when I don't hear voices.

I'm sorry to hear u r going through all this.. it must be hard for u.. but as mlyn said keep faith in what ur hheart says.. i pray things get better for u....

Thanks. Good luck to you too.

this sounds so tough to deal with. have you ever gotten healing prayer for it? there is a cool ministry called healing rooms where you can get prayer. just click where it says 'local healing room' at the top to see if there is one near you. i've gone to a couple of them. one i liked more than the other but they are pretty cool. you can go as often as you need to and there isn't a charge. you can read about their history here.

Aright that was stupid I shouldnt have posted that. Thanks for caring though.