[fight]

Sorry for another post, but I've got a lot that I want to talk about and I thought it would be easier breaking it up into smaller posts than one huge one.

I feel like I am stuck in a bubble, cut off from the rest of the world. I get so caught up in all my thoughts I become distant. I spent the whole day just thinking about what I am doing, and what I am doing wrong with my life. I never did anything with the day, it was over before I realized. This is happening with my entire life. I think about everything but never do anything. I always tell myself that things will get better and I will wait for the time to come, but it never gets better.
The only time I ever act is when the deadline is closing in. I always rush at the end to do things. The problem with this, there is no deadline to make friends or ask a girl out. So I never do it. I always push it off for tomorrow.
All of this overthinking and negative thinking just drains me. I wake up tired and just drag my feet through the day. It kinda feels like after you had a good cry and you’re physically and emotionally tired. I feel like that all day. Everything seems so hopeless and pointless. I don’t enjoy anything that I do. I always find something I did wrong, or could have done better. I just want to have fun and not worry about everything.

[Yoda]

So would it be accurate then to say that you procrastinate doing everything even the fun things?

What helps me is to make a list of short term goals, a list of long term goals and a daily to do list.

[lavieenrose]

It sounds like symptoms of depression to me. Obsessive thinking, self-criticism, lack of energy and motivation, detachment from the world. Are you in therapy or considering a psychiatric evaluation? It would be good to talk to a professional.

[fight]

I guess you could call it procrastination, I just have zero motivation and drive to do anything, even something as little as take a shower. (dont worry I still get around to it eventually)

I don't have a shrink, but I do want to talk to my doctor about this, but I'm not sure if I will be able to do it. And the thing about these symptoms, is that I have been dealing with them nearly all my life. Recently they have been a little more hardcore ( for example my sleeping pattern has changed), but even when I was in 6th grade I can remember these feelings. For a long time I just thought that this was who I am, but one year I came out of it and I realized how horrible my life had been. Now I am trying to put the pieces back together and be happy again.

[Umbral_Seraph]

I often feel I am being dragged through life rather than dragging my feet through life.
One of my biggest enemies in life has my lack of drive.

[madisgram]

i agree. think it's classic clinical depression, imho. i'd definitely bring this up with your doc to get a referral to see a therapist. the T can make a professional diagnosis, examining your symptoms. i'd print out from here what you posted twice. it will help you when you see your doc.

[lastyearisblank]

Not loving deadlines is part of some people's personalities. Some people just like making extra sure before they make a final choice This does not make you crazy (I hope)

The other stuff is textbook anxiety and depression. See a psychotherapist.